somethings bothering me and i dont know what`
well, im sitting here after just having everyone over about an hour and a half ago, and all of a sudden i hit this depression mood and its bothering me cause i dont know why, i mean its not like i really have something to be sad about... and here i am lieing.. yes there is but that i am not talking about because thats my buisness... and the other people that were involved.
im getting so bored and depressed now and theres absolutely nothing to do but be alone, and normally i like being alone... im used to it.. but i guess since this spring break i was with different people most of the time it feels weird being all alone...
i made a new email adress earlier but im not going to use it, i guess i just made it to make me feel better, but then i realized what it was and decided not to use it.
well i may as well try making this a happy post from here on seeing as i dont want everyone asking whats wrong with me.
well i know youre gonna be reading this after im done sarah... so in this case i guess i can say you smell funny :P
yah spring break has been quite alright, but also horrible at that one time... but i dont think many people know about it so im not going into that... im so sick of my life... so far i hate eveything about it, got a family who doesnt get along, i cant be with the one i love too much for me own good, i got friends but thats about all thats keeping me sane... girls are lucky, they can cry and just let all there emotions out and get over it... me i cant remember the last time i cried... so i got all this anger built up inside of me... its hard trying to keep it in too... theres been too many things happening lately and im losing it... you never know someday i may just hurt myself horribly... but i dont wanna do that, i want somethign to make me happy again... but the chances of that are very slim.... seeing as i dont know what will make me happy again, well i know one thing but that will never happen... and other than that i wish i had something to cheer me up... sure ill act happy most of the time, but then i usually get rejected... and left alone like usual for me... and i wonder why i feel unloved.
well this turned out to be a more depressing post than i thought. but i guess its because i started thinking... i dont like thinking cause then i think about bad things... but i guess thats cause i dont have anything to be happy about... im running out of topics to talk about i guess.... its weird i feel like i dont want people to read this, but i may as well let people read this that way they know how i feel i guess... but i dont know i think i may stop this post and mope around, try to find something sharp...
well i guess im done then
im getting so bored and depressed now and theres absolutely nothing to do but be alone, and normally i like being alone... im used to it.. but i guess since this spring break i was with different people most of the time it feels weird being all alone...
i made a new email adress earlier but im not going to use it, i guess i just made it to make me feel better, but then i realized what it was and decided not to use it.
well i may as well try making this a happy post from here on seeing as i dont want everyone asking whats wrong with me.
well i know youre gonna be reading this after im done sarah... so in this case i guess i can say you smell funny :P
yah spring break has been quite alright, but also horrible at that one time... but i dont think many people know about it so im not going into that... im so sick of my life... so far i hate eveything about it, got a family who doesnt get along, i cant be with the one i love too much for me own good, i got friends but thats about all thats keeping me sane... girls are lucky, they can cry and just let all there emotions out and get over it... me i cant remember the last time i cried... so i got all this anger built up inside of me... its hard trying to keep it in too... theres been too many things happening lately and im losing it... you never know someday i may just hurt myself horribly... but i dont wanna do that, i want somethign to make me happy again... but the chances of that are very slim.... seeing as i dont know what will make me happy again, well i know one thing but that will never happen... and other than that i wish i had something to cheer me up... sure ill act happy most of the time, but then i usually get rejected... and left alone like usual for me... and i wonder why i feel unloved.
well this turned out to be a more depressing post than i thought. but i guess its because i started thinking... i dont like thinking cause then i think about bad things... but i guess thats cause i dont have anything to be happy about... im running out of topics to talk about i guess.... its weird i feel like i dont want people to read this, but i may as well let people read this that way they know how i feel i guess... but i dont know i think i may stop this post and mope around, try to find something sharp...
well i guess im done then