people fuckin suck!
so many of my friends are going throw live ok then they realize that they have noone who likes them enough to be with them but really its good that way. many of them want to be in my shoes and feel how i feel and all i can say is go for it! but soon you will see that it sucks being wanted and u end up fucking things up and not have the right words to say to fix things! but i want to be in your guys shoes so that i wont feel the way i do. sure i have all these people who want me but the feeling is the same some times. this dull feeling that just wont go away! and i hate it. if only there was a away to make you guys see that its the same then we wouldnt be writing this shit that we are. i want to be ugly and fat. maybe id feel better in the sense that noone would like me then i could go so far in life to be free and my own person. thats all i want to be is free but i cant i jhave had this life style since i was in the third grade and i for one dont like it. i reather be just a friend then eye candy for many. and then people would leave me alone and no one would fuck with my emotions and other crap. and make me feel that they want me when they really dont. i hate that it happens to everyone cause people are fucking stupid! so i say fuck people and move on! you all have friends and really thats all you need!