in a million years i wish that i could just fly away from here!!!!

[moopeople]

one day im going to fly ! fly so far away from the whole wide world .... im not going to look back at all the people that i once Knew and loved.... the ones that i thought that i couldnt live with out! its like a prison here on this planet that they call earth...... i just wish that i could be free and not locked up in it! just to escape all the drama that fills my life and the lives around me and for once just be free>>>>>>>>> and in the end when im done flying i will come back to you my love and everyone that i once feared to leave. and then ill sit alone and think to myself why didnt i just keep flying and whatever made me come back and then i realize that it was you i came back for alll you ... but in the end i wish that you could have just come with me.but you didnt want to >>>>>i remember it like it was just yesterday.. you were afraid of leaving!! that once you left this planet that you would srival up and die but you didnt see how pretty it was and how you didnt have to wrry about anything except for the things you took with you !!>>>>>>>> if only you where there to see it ! it is just big and so cold and hot at the same time its better then any discription of heaven could ever be. its so lovely and sweet yet so bitter and unkind. you were never taken care of out there you just had to wrry about ur self. oo how much i miss it>>>> but i couldnt leave you any longer i missed you so much but yet i come back to find out you moved on... to some one more kind then me and softer to touch.. and you tell me that you just love to be with her yet i find you sleeping with me every night... i see it in your eyes how much you missed me but you just cant bring ur self to leave her for me, cause you cant just be a man..>>> i fear for the day that shell find us... shell kill us .. man how exciting this all is..why couldnt we have done this before??? as i think to my self while i kiss you for what feels like the frist time in like forever..but yet you didnt seem intrested in me. i look out the window to find her standing there by her car feeling unsure about being there. i see the fear in her eyes as she looks from her car. i see that she was crying her heart out cause she found some of the letters you were writing to me. she heads toward our door and you move with a panic that she might find us here.. but i say she knows and then the mood of the room swiches from happy to a gloomy feeling. she kicks open the door and she is crying but all i think in my head was when did she start to cry again? but that wasnt all that i could smell! the harsh bold smell of her breath as she trys to make since of it all.. but i sit there i didnt even move an inch when i saw her by her car or should i say ur car>>>> the the next thing you know and see and smell is the beautiful color of crimson red every where and its a sweet look.... and now im flying again and i dont know how i am doing it?!?!? i wish that you didnt have to go through this but yet it is ur fault because you didnt break it off in the first place..but every thing is now said and done.. we're together at last here in my domain.. ooo how sweet it is!

man i love to free write! i love you travis with all my heart! i miss you so much and it isnt fair! i love you hun and thats that!