May 19, 2005 22:14
ok so now for all those who dont know its summer time and im happy!!!! but yet im not! i miss my hunnie and i cant stand that im not going to see him tomorrow.. ok and the fact that he doesnt want me to be friends with his ex isnt fair either.i see why he is mad at her but what does that have to do with me?? im not going to be like her at all but he just doesnt understand... i mean the frist few weeks i understand why he is scared but its almost two months and i just dont understand is there just something im missing? but yeah that doesnt matter any more cause im not mad any more. but yeah i love travy more than i could ever love anything in this world and i would do anything for him! but i just cant get over the fact that he is just so emotional.
god i hate the fact that most of my exs still like me and i dont understand why?!?! i have stoped talk to all of thenm and yet they still like me! why? why cant it just be like everyone else why cant they hate me ???? that would be so much better then them trying to get me back. i hate it why do they like me is there some thing i can do to tell everyone of them that its not going to happen.... if it were only that easy.!
and most people when they read this stuff they think that im conceaded but really im telling the truth about it just ask one of my friends they know.. but really this happens to me and i hate it most wouldnt mind but i used to be that way until they all started after me more than once and it just wasnt cool... i hate it i hate being like and i hate have so many exs but i just cant help the fact that i had conmetment issues. i learned that from the one i like to call mom.
but yeah enough feeling srry for myself .....i love travy and thats all that matters right now.
i love you travis!!!!
thats it for now!
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