Ode to a placenta
I just recieved a big package of books and magazines from Midwifery Today! Yay!!! So my poor boys have had to fight with Anne Frye's Holistic Midwifery for my attention all evening. I just can't get enough! Especially when it comes to learning about herbs and homeopathy for health. Oooo, and today I learned about the coolest way to tell if a woman is pregnant! I think it was at 10 weeks or so, while doing an internal exam, you first check her cervix to see if it is soft like lips (instead of the consistency of the tip of your nose). Then, while doing a bimanual exam, feel either side of her cervix/bottom of her uterus. If your fingers feel like they meet, then she is preggo. I had heard of the many other ways to confirm pregnancy before, but this one had not come up before. oooo
Ugh, I really need to go to bed, but my reading materials are calling to me....
I wonder how other midwive's who had small children were able to attend births/do an apprenticeship. I am so frustrated that I can't just run up to my favorite midwives in town and offer my volunteer services to basically be their bitch. I wish wish wish that Ian was able to be home so I could work full time. It is so frustrating to me that he has no passion for his work, but it comes first and that I have so much passion for mine, but he treats it like a hobby. What is so wrong with me loving the work I do? It is so very soulful and has such a huge impact on society. I know that what I fight for will change the world. His work expands peoples waistlines (mine included *blush*) and clogs arteries while stressing him out to no end. I understand that he feels like he needs to support us. I know he worries about money. I do to. But I also know that whenever I follow my intuition, Perfection provides what I need. Straights are never as dire as he believes them to be.
I have also been really hooked on the new Shambala Sun (I think that's what it's called) issue. In particular the articles on Zen Koans and contemplation......mmmm......There is this really juicy koan about diving into a sea and retrieving a stone that lies tens of thousands of feet beneath the surface without wetting your hands. K, that just brought me back from wherever my head just was. I need to go to bed...........jess :)