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lalala well friday was my bday and it was pretty good...to many ballons!!!!lol umm well my bday party was pretty cool going to the mall coming back watching movies then in the morning inhaling helium...lol....my voice sounds so weird on that stuff. well i got my vans (finally after finaly not being broke[thoe i am now again]) and i got the hat from pac sun i wanted the black one with BAM on the front in pink and black. well being home the entire day doing nothing but sleeping gave me a lot of time to think about stuff...like the one guy i really miss but blew my chances 3 times already...he must hate me now....i feel like crying everytime i look at the necklace, cuz its so nice and it makes me miss being able to be held by him...hes so sweet and i wish we were still together cuz i still do like him and i think about him a lot wondering the stupidest thing,"does he think of me to"...most likly no...so many things remind me of him: the lead singer of Smile Empty Soul, Bam, Bams tv show, & skateboarding...im not sure if thats a good thing or not...i just know that i miss him and miss talking to him on the phone and online.....geez i feel crappy even though it supposed to be my bday weekend and is supposed to be "fun" ha...yea it was fun till i looked at the necklace and felt miserable...i really wish he hadn't had let me go and instead waited so maybe things could've gotten better...but now..i guess we'll never know. well on the bright side bitchy cheerleading is finalyl over and bball is to. i got aan email from the softball coach at pvi and it said that i was on hte team but i dont think im gonna do it, i guess i'll just do bball or sumthing still not sure if im gonna chose art or drama as my elective *sigh**tears*i hate my life...i wish everything could just fall into place the way my life is supposed to go...or at least be able to look into the future and see what my messed up life will end up as that would be nice. well i gotta finsih homework so im out.