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Hello out there in LJ-land. Anyone still around here?
I'm coming up on my 10 year anniversary of having an LJ account. 10 FREAKIN' YEARS!!!
That's crazy...
The only times I really post anymore is when there is a big change or crossroads in my life, and this time is no different.
Earlier this week, I gave notice of my resignation at a job I've held for a couple of years - the craziest, most challenging job I've ever worked - BY FAR. The trouble is, I was really good at it, by all accounts the best they've ever had, but I am totally physically and mentally burnt out. I've got nothing left in the tank.
Recently, I had a one-week vacation, the first since I started working there. And there was a part of me that hoped it would be enough to re-charge the batteries so I could face another year at that place. No such luck. It wasn't nearly enough time, and instead of looking forward, I was considering exit strategies.
Also, I did not plan to resign. It was a discussion that turned into an argument with my boss, which was actually a continuation of an on-going difference of philosophy. He put it to me simply, "if that's the way you feel, then you should resign."
I don't think he meant for me to agree right then, but when he said it and I heard myself saying, "well, I guess I resign then," something just clicked in me. I had a moment of clarity, and even though it was me speaking, it was like I was listening to myself speak in 3rd person, and I knew I was hearing the real truth.
Not looking forward to the freelance game in the where's-my-money-gonna-come-from sense, but I did gain a lot of confidence about my knowledge and abilities from this last job. It's not even so much that I'm good at doing one certain particular thing, but since I work in theatre, the ability to adapt and learn as you go, to face problems that you don't know the solution - but you find a way to solve it anyway, is invaluable. Translating that or even selling that to another line of work (where I could get a decent paycheck and benefits without selling my soul or sacrificing my body) is another set of challenges altogether. I'm going to figure that one out someday.
In other news, I'm still the same old me, warts and all. But I guess you're never too old to make a change.
I'm coming up on my 10 year anniversary of having an LJ account. 10 FREAKIN' YEARS!!!
That's crazy...
The only times I really post anymore is when there is a big change or crossroads in my life, and this time is no different.
Earlier this week, I gave notice of my resignation at a job I've held for a couple of years - the craziest, most challenging job I've ever worked - BY FAR. The trouble is, I was really good at it, by all accounts the best they've ever had, but I am totally physically and mentally burnt out. I've got nothing left in the tank.
Recently, I had a one-week vacation, the first since I started working there. And there was a part of me that hoped it would be enough to re-charge the batteries so I could face another year at that place. No such luck. It wasn't nearly enough time, and instead of looking forward, I was considering exit strategies.
Also, I did not plan to resign. It was a discussion that turned into an argument with my boss, which was actually a continuation of an on-going difference of philosophy. He put it to me simply, "if that's the way you feel, then you should resign."
I don't think he meant for me to agree right then, but when he said it and I heard myself saying, "well, I guess I resign then," something just clicked in me. I had a moment of clarity, and even though it was me speaking, it was like I was listening to myself speak in 3rd person, and I knew I was hearing the real truth.
Not looking forward to the freelance game in the where's-my-money-gonna-come-from sense, but I did gain a lot of confidence about my knowledge and abilities from this last job. It's not even so much that I'm good at doing one certain particular thing, but since I work in theatre, the ability to adapt and learn as you go, to face problems that you don't know the solution - but you find a way to solve it anyway, is invaluable. Translating that or even selling that to another line of work (where I could get a decent paycheck and benefits without selling my soul or sacrificing my body) is another set of challenges altogether. I'm going to figure that one out someday.
In other news, I'm still the same old me, warts and all. But I guess you're never too old to make a change.