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For starters, I want to thank my beloved sister Nana, for the paid account. Isn't my layout nice and pretty now? My life isn't quite what you may think. I do my homework and I have loads of friends, but I'm not always happy. I’m not sure why but, I always seems to have a sense of loneliness when I'm at home. I don’t know why. Is that a problem? I’m always optimistic while I’m at school it’s just once I enter my eternal chamber that is my room, I feel an empty feeling. I have all the friends but am somehow lonely. I know that you never lose by loving but you do by holding back but I can’t seem to shake them feeling of knowing that I’ll somehow get hurt. Because, through my eyes “love is like magic but even magic is sometimes an illusion,” you know? I don’t know whether to invest in this feeling of acceptance or to further my adventure in the darkness.
One thing that has happened new in my life is FFA. I have fun at the field days but I lose that thought and feeling when I know that it’s over. For example, I stayed behind on our families camping trip to go to one of these field days, but know I am regretting that decision. Knowing that they are out having fun, kind of makes me envious of their blissful entertainment. Somewhere deep inside me thinks that the “in the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.” But sometimes I lose sight of that, and run amuck not knowing what to do.
This week, as some may know is Spring break for us Woodlanders. So I have a week full of Kingdom Hearts II. This is somehow a type of therapy. Watching Sora go through his adventures is kind of refreshing. It reminds me of everything, and puts it all into perspective. The games makes me think…about things. Think about things like how “life is like a shell. Its hard to break; unless you break it yourself.”So, I am pretty much full of wandering thoughts and not really sure what to with them all. Right now, I am sketching pictures, nothing good in particular but something.
One thing that has happened new in my life is FFA. I have fun at the field days but I lose that thought and feeling when I know that it’s over. For example, I stayed behind on our families camping trip to go to one of these field days, but know I am regretting that decision. Knowing that they are out having fun, kind of makes me envious of their blissful entertainment. Somewhere deep inside me thinks that the “in the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.” But sometimes I lose sight of that, and run amuck not knowing what to do.
This week, as some may know is Spring break for us Woodlanders. So I have a week full of Kingdom Hearts II. This is somehow a type of therapy. Watching Sora go through his adventures is kind of refreshing. It reminds me of everything, and puts it all into perspective. The games makes me think…about things. Think about things like how “life is like a shell. Its hard to break; unless you break it yourself.”So, I am pretty much full of wandering thoughts and not really sure what to with them all. Right now, I am sketching pictures, nothing good in particular but something.