Once Again
To everything there is a season…
Ryan spent the entire day in the pool house, looking at some old pictures that he had, pictures from the last 3 years, sure there was a chance she would still want to go away and deep inside he knew he shouldn’t let her go, but he couldn’t stop her, if she needed to do that then he would be behind her 100%. But he wouldn’t let her go without a fight, not without her really knowing how he feels, sure he had told her but now he was going to show it and from now on this would be a different Attwood, specially a different Ryan Attwood.
He went into the kitchen area in the pool house, opening one closet taking the pencils and his drawing book, he grabbed one picture of her, opening the notebook and starting to drawn, sure Seth could drawn but also could Ryan, the difference was that Seth wanted to make a living out of it and Ryan no, Ryan wanted to drawn houses, chase is childhood dream and he was going to show her a different side of Ryan Attwood.
As time was going he was more and more excited with what he was planning, sure it was nothing fancy, but right now, what he wanted was to show her the simplicity of his love for her. Funny… how something that is so simple, can be so hard, so complicated.
Ryan spent the entire day, drawing, taking pictures (yes he was stealthier than Seth), putting pictures on the notebook he had been drawing, the blinds were down, so there was only light from inside, as he sat himself in the middle of the bed, his legs folded, pictures, glue, scissors around him, as he looked at the notebook, he felt a sense of proud, it was great, sure some of the drawings were lame, but, since he made them in kind of sketches, they had turned out really great, now all that was missing was the cover….
For more than he wanted to put a picture of the two of them, he knew there was a chance they wouldn’t be together and that was eating him inside, but he promptly shook those thoughts away, sure they could be one messed up couple, but somehow, when they were together their mess was easier to deal, the only thing he would change was is mouth shout, sure sometimes it was easier to brood, sometimes it was easier to pick up the pieces, even when you see it all crushing down, even when you just pick them cause you want to….Every time he went into the house, he would lock the door, sure they had one open door policy but he wanted privacy, and with Seth entering the pool house at his own pleasure he wouldn’t be able to prepare it right, and most of all he wouldn’t surprise her, so the door was locked, with him ignoring Seth knocking on the door, ringing him, etc
After spending the entire day in the pool house Ryan decided to get out for a bit, as he as getting ready to jump in the shower, he grabbed is phone, dialling the number in speed dial 1, letting the phone ring a couple of times, before hearing the voice he was eager to hear.
Hey
He could feel is heart fast his beat as her voice came trough:
Hey! How are you doing? What are you up to?
Fine, you? And I’m doing nothing…. (he couldn’t help to smile as his eyes were on the notebook that was on his nigh table, nothing he thought)
I’m better now…
Why?
I’m hearing your voice
She couldn’t help to blush, but since the accident Ryan was acting “weird” like something was bothering him and he wouldn’t say it, but she knew it, that accident had changed their way of seeing things, and all their fears seem so far away and the new ones that haunt them was new one. And she also knew she was acting strangely towards him.
Marissa… hello!
Sorry, I got distracted…
No problem, I was wondering what are you doing for dinner.
Sorry but my mom wants me to have dinner with her..
And after dinner?
Nothing, why?
I was wondering if you want to go grab some ice cream at the pier?
Ryan Attwood, are you asking me out… like a date? She couldn’t help to let a little laugh
I… well… Sort of…
Ryan, I’m just kidding, I would like to.
Great I’ll pick you in 2 hours!!
Make it 2 and a half!
Ok!
And they both hang up the phone, both with a small smile on their faces, their eyes shining; seems they had a pact to take things slow.
Ryan he walked to his stereo putting it on, hearing Metallica’s nothing else matters starting to blast through the columns went to take a bath, taking off his wife beater, then grabbing a towel from the cabinet, he enter the bathroom, looking at the mirror, he rubbed his face passing his hands on his hair, that was bit bigger, and look at himself and couldn’t help to laugh, he couldn’t believe in himself he was going on a date with Marissa Cooper, and he couldn’t help to feel anxious, he was worse than the first time he went out with her. But this time he knew where he was going to take her, he left the water run letting the steam heat up the bathroom, putting his feet in the shower allowing the hot water to run through is body.
Marissa, put the phone on her night stand, with a smile plastered on her face, she went to her closet starting to take off some clothes and throwing them into the bed, while her radio kept on blasting Shakiras’s new song “my hips don’t lie”, she couldn’t help to smile.
She finally decided on some black jeans, a green sweater, the light green scarf and a black sweater, and finally some sport shoes, and then she let her blond hair hang loose as she went to taker a long shower, why did she felt the need to impress him.
Ryan got out of the bathroom; his hair in a mess, letting small droplets fall from his hair, rolling down is back, going down through, landing on the towel that was rapped around his waist, he started to listen to the song “Save Me” by Edguy’s. he pull out some plain black shirt, some black jeans and his new pair of boots, then he grabbed one of his woo dies, going to the kitchen to eat something and then go get Marissa.
Marissa let the water fill the tub, putting some strawberry bobble bath, slipping her long legs into the tub, letting the warm water submerge her body, she laid there remembering the first date she went with Ryan, and by the time she finished thinking about that first date, she just hoped that this one would end up better, sure it still could go wrong so many ways but she would only know if she tried… and right now she owned herself to try. She got out of the bathroom, making her way to her bedroom, where she found Summer laying her bed, flopping her magazine, Summer raised one eyebrown to Marissa, but didn’t to say anything, after all they went through for Summer seeing her best friend laughing, smiling, singing along to Pink’s “Who Knew”
So what’s the reason to that happiness?
Well I’m going out with Ryan. She couldn’t help to smile at thinking of her “date”
Summer couldn’t help to laugh.
So where are you going?
We’re going to eat some ice cream at the pier…
OOOh that’s so mature…. For a 10 year old
Well I think its sweet!
And it is… well for Chino, that’s an improvement…
And with that she put on her clothes and made her way to the dinning room, with Summer.
Like children on a lake…
After dinner, Ryan and Marissa were walking down the pier, Ryan felt his hand grasping on hers, and has their bodies walked down the pier, their hands swinging with their bodies slowly letting his hand grab hers, felling his hand taking her, her long fingers entwining with his, feeling some chills down their spine. As he felt that she didn’t pull her hand, and the she actually squeeze it a bit, he couldn’t help to let a small smile creep in his lips, fighting the urge to turn and kiss her, still he stopped there was too many things on his mind, mostly what would happen between them, he for now and forever knew that no matter what he would love her and would do anything for her to be happy, no matter what it cost him.
She look at him, from the corner of her eye, seeing the smile that he had plastered on his face, that wasn’t to big, but was the kind of smile just for being with her a sincere smile, one happy smile, the kind of smile that makes the other people just smile, she couldn’t help to smile also, after seeing him smiling like that she just couldn’t stop smiling.
The moon was raising, without a single cloud in the sky, the white glow reflecting in the ocean that was now standing in front of them, as they let go off each others hand, letting their bodies rest against the rail, just staying there seeing the moon, the stars and the water, above and below them.
“So” she trailed off breaking the silence that filled the air between them, letting a deep breath out.
He looked at her, his eyes totally sparkling, as he took her beauty, he opened his mouth but no sound came out at first…
“So… I don’t get it” he mumbled, letting the words out as if he was speaking his thoughts out loud
“What?” She asked him with a puzzled face, wrinkling her nose, with one innocent smile with her.
“You always let me speechless… not that I do talk much…”
She couldn’t help to laugh as his statement was true, he never did talk much although he was talking more than when she first met him, and since that day at the end of the Cohen’s driveway, many things had changed for better and for worst, they were both different people, he had some resemble to that bad boy from Chino, and she still had the same spark of the Newport princess that she was, but those two people that were standing there watching the moon shine on the ocean, just enjoying their “friendship”, for once the silence was enough for both of them, despite all the things that were running inside their minds.
“What are you planning on doing?” He asked her totally blunt, sure that was the question that he had been thinking since they had left the hospital, but in some way they were so wrapped with each other, even when they were apart there was a part of him that always had cared and should care for her.
“Honestly I don’t know”- she told him setting her gaze was set on the water that was hitting the ocean, she let out another deep sigh…
“I don’t know what to do” she stated, cause that wasn’t a question, she wasn’t asking for advice, she was actually saying that, but with such a determination.
He then realised that she was no longer the scared little girl that he was dating in October, that send her father away, she was actually a strong woman, much like her mother, but less a lot less scarier, and much, much kind hearted, like she had taken the best of her mother and the best of her father, and now it was just surfacing.
He took her hand on his, his fingers entwined with hers, slightly squeezing it, he couldn’t help to look at her and smile, he shook his head the same smirk on his lips.
She look at him, seeing the smirk on his face, it wasn’t like he was laughing at her, or cause of her, he smeed much happier than before, and the smirk was so sincere that she didn’t knew if she should ask him why he was like that.
“Sorry, but, I think you already now the answer to what you want to do”
“Yeah I have a good idea, but…” she started and let her eyes rest on the old life guard stand
“But…. You’re afraid of who will stay behind.” He finished for her, cause he knew that feeling to well.
He didn’t stop himself, cause if he did, then he would never be able to let it out, and more pain it could cause him he had to do it.
“I just want you to know, I understand why you have to do this” his eyes drifting from the sea, to her.
“Thanks” As her head turned to face him, she couldn’t help to remember this conversation but the other way around, still as in that day there was a sweet breeze.
“But I wish you didn’t have to”
“Me too”
Before she could continue, his let go of the cold rail, taking a place on her lips, before he pull her in one hug, letting those 3 words linger in he hear
“I love you” and then he buried his head on her shoulder.
This time she couldn’t help to smile, despite the bitter tear that rolled down her cheek. And him this time, knew it could be a year ‘till they see each other again, but, he also knew that they would be together eventually.
The end…..