Once Again- Wonder what you're doing
Wonder what you’re doing …
It was already late, when a small knock on the door, made her mind wake up. The door open slowly to give her a view of Kirsten and Sandy, what she saw, made her voice got stuck, they where a mess, sure they looked fine dress, but the spark in their eyes, the smile so embrace full, they had was now replaced by a hint of fear and sadness.
Both of them manage a smile, very small, but real to her, she realized then that it had taken hard on them, sure he wasn’t their real son, but he was treated, cherished like one, she put a smile to them, all her strength didn’t seem enough to pull that, but she manage to pull it, somehow thinking of the times they had shared, the moments when they would have.
They started with small talk; the moment wasn’t for great conversations, as their mind was more concerned with the boy that lay in a room away. They excuse them self’s, after Kirsten made sure she was all right, she always cared for Marissa as the daughter she never had, the friendship she nurtured for her father, and the fact that this girl was important for one of her boys, even when himself didn’t knew that.
They where already at the door, when Sandy looked at Kirsten and asked for a minute with Marissa, Marissa started to think what did Sandy wanted, he made his way till next to the chair, and with a soft voice.
Marissa, do you remember, what happened that night?
Yes! She said with a strong voice while her eyes become fluttered with water, telling him and her, that the memories where already playing in her mind.
Shiuuu… he somehow just realise that this had something to do with her, and he needed to act fast, so there could be some damage control… It’s going to be all right! I just want some answers and if the police come here don’t tell them anything, I’m your lawyer. He said giving her a smile and a blink of an eye.
He gave her a kiss, and whispers in her hear.
He is going to be fine, everything will be all right. And don’t blame yourself, it wasn’t your fault… I know what you are thinking, and I also know he loves you a lot, and would never blame you he loves you too much to blame it on you. If I know him, he is probably blaming himself
After this he made his way out of the room, stopping at the door, to give her another reassuring smile.
She closed her eyes, and let herself fall asleep, this night there weren’t room for any bad memories, for any nightmares, as her mind pulled the moments when they had met, the first kiss they had shared, him returning instead of going to be a fisherman, the moment they first made love, then she dreamed something that she didn’t knew what it was, she could see him sitting at a lake, looking to the water, surrounded by a haze, he didn’t move, like he was frozen, she tried to call him, move towards him, but instead, she got away from him, so she stopped and got closer, she knew she couldn’t do anything, otherwise she would be further from him, she stayed there looking at him.
She could absorbed all his lines, every wrinkle on his eyes, from when he smiled, the shape of his lips, the blue on his eyes, she could see the spark of his life, hanging thin as ice, soft as a candle, but somehow strong, willing to carry on, as he got up and walked inside the lake, letting is body fall over the water… this made her caught her breath, to let it go the next instant as she saw his body raise, his hair throwing water in a circle around him, making her wish she could remember that moment.
She could hear someone calling her very softly, making her smirk before opening her eyes, to meet her father, she notice the dawn, and wondered why her father was there. She looked at him, and saw a bag by his side, here he was to say goodbye, she couldn’t help to let a tear glide down her face, he slowly wipe the tear away
Kiddo I got to go, but I’ll be back in two weeks
Why… she left out in a small whisper, still with a sleepy voice
I asked the company for a job closer, at least while you recover, then if you want we can still go, just the two of us.
I would love to, so I’ll see you in two weeks. Promise?
Promise… and with that he gave her a kiss on the forehead and left.
It was already late, when a small knock on the door, made her mind wake up. The door open slowly to give her a view of Kirsten and Sandy, what she saw, made her voice got stuck, they where a mess, sure they looked fine dress, but the spark in their eyes, the smile so embrace full, they had was now replaced by a hint of fear and sadness.
Both of them manage a smile, very small, but real to her, she realized then that it had taken hard on them, sure he wasn’t their real son, but he was treated, cherished like one, she put a smile to them, all her strength didn’t seem enough to pull that, but she manage to pull it, somehow thinking of the times they had shared, the moments when they would have.
They started with small talk; the moment wasn’t for great conversations, as their mind was more concerned with the boy that lay in a room away. They excuse them self’s, after Kirsten made sure she was all right, she always cared for Marissa as the daughter she never had, the friendship she nurtured for her father, and the fact that this girl was important for one of her boys, even when himself didn’t knew that.
They where already at the door, when Sandy looked at Kirsten and asked for a minute with Marissa, Marissa started to think what did Sandy wanted, he made his way till next to the chair, and with a soft voice.
Marissa, do you remember, what happened that night?
Yes! She said with a strong voice while her eyes become fluttered with water, telling him and her, that the memories where already playing in her mind.
Shiuuu… he somehow just realise that this had something to do with her, and he needed to act fast, so there could be some damage control… It’s going to be all right! I just want some answers and if the police come here don’t tell them anything, I’m your lawyer. He said giving her a smile and a blink of an eye.
He gave her a kiss, and whispers in her hear.
He is going to be fine, everything will be all right. And don’t blame yourself, it wasn’t your fault… I know what you are thinking, and I also know he loves you a lot, and would never blame you he loves you too much to blame it on you. If I know him, he is probably blaming himself
After this he made his way out of the room, stopping at the door, to give her another reassuring smile.
She closed her eyes, and let herself fall asleep, this night there weren’t room for any bad memories, for any nightmares, as her mind pulled the moments when they had met, the first kiss they had shared, him returning instead of going to be a fisherman, the moment they first made love, then she dreamed something that she didn’t knew what it was, she could see him sitting at a lake, looking to the water, surrounded by a haze, he didn’t move, like he was frozen, she tried to call him, move towards him, but instead, she got away from him, so she stopped and got closer, she knew she couldn’t do anything, otherwise she would be further from him, she stayed there looking at him.
She could absorbed all his lines, every wrinkle on his eyes, from when he smiled, the shape of his lips, the blue on his eyes, she could see the spark of his life, hanging thin as ice, soft as a candle, but somehow strong, willing to carry on, as he got up and walked inside the lake, letting is body fall over the water… this made her caught her breath, to let it go the next instant as she saw his body raise, his hair throwing water in a circle around him, making her wish she could remember that moment.
She could hear someone calling her very softly, making her smirk before opening her eyes, to meet her father, she notice the dawn, and wondered why her father was there. She looked at him, and saw a bag by his side, here he was to say goodbye, she couldn’t help to let a tear glide down her face, he slowly wipe the tear away
Kiddo I got to go, but I’ll be back in two weeks
Why… she left out in a small whisper, still with a sleepy voice
I asked the company for a job closer, at least while you recover, then if you want we can still go, just the two of us.
I would love to, so I’ll see you in two weeks. Promise?
Promise… and with that he gave her a kiss on the forehead and left.