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i am strangly anxiouse.
its that feeling. the "something big is going to happen"feeling, where my heart pounds in fear. even if it is nothing, i still feel something. this is driving me insane, i can't work, I can't stop eating, or thinking, I havent even been able to sit still long enough to write my bio lab. which is due for tommrow.
i wish i knew a way to put stop to this. or to at least figure out what has me in such a state.
maybe its beacuse I am lost in a sea of uncertanty. which is really a lie, beacuse i know what i am doing with my life. i just cant seem to work for it.
see? im unmotived for all the good things in my life. but for the bad things? i;m there.
god my lack of self control is amazingly sickening sometime. and i REALLY hate plants.
i realy dont know what else to say, the need to stand up and pace is... REALLYL high.
#$TFJIS#@WEFS ugh. i am one messed up person. well not messed up per say, just insane and somewhat naracistic.
which for the record is another thing i HATE.
maybe i will make list of things i hate about myself and everyday change one thing about me. then again, i would get tired of: myself, the list, my stupid ideas.
... so really, not much diffrent from now.
maybe pulling the all nighter today isnt the best idea.
ay. no se no se no se no se no se no se no se no se no se.