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home sweet home
sometimes i wonder how i can adapt to certain places so easily. after all, how can a place where i have been living less then a month feel like home?
its just does.
maybe its the country music that ben plays, or the fact that I have my own space, or that I love benny to pieces. it just feels right.
not to be consfused of course, i cant wait to live wth pati and jordan.
jajaja, anywho, i have deviated from the main point of my inner musings
i am actually very very very scared about starting sophmore year.
i dont want this to be over. this is supposed to be the 4 years that i would grow out of my shell and LIVE. sadly enough i dont think i am living enough. ahh thats what drives me insane, this need to go out and BE and DO
!
jajaja, i know i know, i have to learn first before going out to save a life. its just.
gr
i had a talk with abi about this. he said the same thing. and its true.
for now, i have three goals:
- research my summer internship. maybe i will look into the maine caridology program. seeing as i am hoping to specialize in either cardiology or physicology.
- research study abroad programs. see if there is any way of me going to japan. if not then england it is for me! ... or france.
- volenteer. and soon
oh ok, fine two more things
- get a job
- start swimming again
but these two things will be done tommrow, so i dont think they count so much.
i dunno. should I go to japan? sometimes i hate that i second guess myself. i mean, yes its a human condition, but its annoying. at what point did we humans become dependant on the need for other peoples opinion?
...myabe around the same time that TV came out.
or internet. jajajaja
you know, i love being happy. jajaja, ok, random, but really. its like this huge weight has been lifeted of your chest, i feel like things will be ok no matter what. it just makes this huge smile apear on my face.
ah i love it!!
jajaja, yes yes. i must contunie to write in here, its funny how much clearer my mind is once i am done writing here.
feels good.
sometimes i wonder how i can adapt to certain places so easily. after all, how can a place where i have been living less then a month feel like home?
its just does.
maybe its the country music that ben plays, or the fact that I have my own space, or that I love benny to pieces. it just feels right.
not to be consfused of course, i cant wait to live wth pati and jordan.
jajaja, anywho, i have deviated from the main point of my inner musings
i am actually very very very scared about starting sophmore year.
i dont want this to be over. this is supposed to be the 4 years that i would grow out of my shell and LIVE. sadly enough i dont think i am living enough. ahh thats what drives me insane, this need to go out and BE and DO
!
jajaja, i know i know, i have to learn first before going out to save a life. its just.
gr
i had a talk with abi about this. he said the same thing. and its true.
for now, i have three goals:
- research my summer internship. maybe i will look into the maine caridology program. seeing as i am hoping to specialize in either cardiology or physicology.
- research study abroad programs. see if there is any way of me going to japan. if not then england it is for me! ... or france.
- volenteer. and soon
oh ok, fine two more things
- get a job
- start swimming again
but these two things will be done tommrow, so i dont think they count so much.
i dunno. should I go to japan? sometimes i hate that i second guess myself. i mean, yes its a human condition, but its annoying. at what point did we humans become dependant on the need for other peoples opinion?
...myabe around the same time that TV came out.
or internet. jajajaja
you know, i love being happy. jajaja, ok, random, but really. its like this huge weight has been lifeted of your chest, i feel like things will be ok no matter what. it just makes this huge smile apear on my face.
ah i love it!!
jajaja, yes yes. i must contunie to write in here, its funny how much clearer my mind is once i am done writing here.
feels good.