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i knew it. when i told my parents i was burned out i wasnt lying. i really was.
oh shit, what if i have just wasted all my parents money?
i am such a fuck up, fuc fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i am am so scared. wtf is wwrong with me? why cant i work? why cant i adjust? why cant i just WORK?
why cant i be what i want to be?
why.am.i.so.afraid?
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. what did i DO?
edit: I realize now that my problem was control. i have no control. no self control. no idea how to sit and READ. or not eat. I cant conrtol my study habits, my partying habits, my eating habits.
thats my downfall.
and now i have to fix.it.
oh shit, what if i have just wasted all my parents money?
i am such a fuck up, fuc fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i am am so scared. wtf is wwrong with me? why cant i work? why cant i adjust? why cant i just WORK?
why cant i be what i want to be?
why.am.i.so.afraid?
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. what did i DO?
edit: I realize now that my problem was control. i have no control. no self control. no idea how to sit and READ. or not eat. I cant conrtol my study habits, my partying habits, my eating habits.
thats my downfall.
and now i have to fix.it.