「The middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start」
I opened the update page hours ago and now I don't really remember what I was going to write :/ I keep meaning to write things down and get them out of my head, but here we are in May already...
There's really a lot of things I mean to do, and keep putting off... scanning (omg the huge pile of davinci I have D:), drawing (artblock :/), translating... I really should do the last two. Drawing bc I'll never improve if I don't, and thus I'll just keep being unhappy with anything I DO do. Translating because similarly, my Japanese will never improve unless I actually USE it somehow. I don't think I'm that great at it tbh, just chugging along I guess, but I somehow like the process of translating, idk. I saw a quote once that described it perfectly, but I don't remember it :'D I think it's kind of a problem solving thing, I was always good at maths probably for the same kind of reason. idk.
But I keep falling into these funks of like, what's the point? Whenever I do try and do something (for fandom, I can't seem to be happy just doing things for myself), pretty much every single time someone else has already done it by the time I do. And then I think "well what did I just waste all that time doing" and am more reluctant to do it again. (like spending legit days ripping and uploading dvds only to open the comm to post and find a post literally at the top of the page >_<)
Maybe I'm just whinging u_u
I wish I could remember what I'd originally meant to write, this is just sliding into stupid complaining :/ Must be that time of night. Or season >.> (it's only May but I'm ready for winter to be over already and it hasn't even really got cold yet. Sigh.)
I think I really just miss when fandom used to interact. Or at least comment on shit. (before everyone left lj :x) Where do you go to be able to hold a conversation anymore...
Anyway, I've been trying to record ebi's radio (with varying levels of success, the other day my vpn dropped out 2/3 of the way through, ugh), I should probably upload those. Or the ones I did do myself anyway. Shouldn't upload other peoples' :x Though I'm probably the only one who cares about radio too (even with a rather lack of tottsu thus far u_u).
Entry also posted at http://narika-chan.dreamwidth.org/27606.html if you'd rather comment there~
There's really a lot of things I mean to do, and keep putting off... scanning (omg the huge pile of davinci I have D:), drawing (artblock :/), translating... I really should do the last two. Drawing bc I'll never improve if I don't, and thus I'll just keep being unhappy with anything I DO do. Translating because similarly, my Japanese will never improve unless I actually USE it somehow. I don't think I'm that great at it tbh, just chugging along I guess, but I somehow like the process of translating, idk. I saw a quote once that described it perfectly, but I don't remember it :'D I think it's kind of a problem solving thing, I was always good at maths probably for the same kind of reason. idk.
But I keep falling into these funks of like, what's the point? Whenever I do try and do something (for fandom, I can't seem to be happy just doing things for myself), pretty much every single time someone else has already done it by the time I do. And then I think "well what did I just waste all that time doing" and am more reluctant to do it again. (like spending legit days ripping and uploading dvds only to open the comm to post and find a post literally at the top of the page >_<)
Maybe I'm just whinging u_u
I wish I could remember what I'd originally meant to write, this is just sliding into stupid complaining :/ Must be that time of night. Or season >.> (it's only May but I'm ready for winter to be over already and it hasn't even really got cold yet. Sigh.)
I think I really just miss when fandom used to interact. Or at least comment on shit. (before everyone left lj :x) Where do you go to be able to hold a conversation anymore...
Anyway, I've been trying to record ebi's radio (with varying levels of success, the other day my vpn dropped out 2/3 of the way through, ugh), I should probably upload those. Or the ones I did do myself anyway. Shouldn't upload other peoples' :x Though I'm probably the only one who cares about radio too (even with a rather lack of tottsu thus far u_u).
Entry also posted at http://narika-chan.dreamwidth.org/27606.html if you'd rather comment there~