何もかも夢になる…
So, I didn't end up going to my class this morning, but only because I didn't wake up until after lunch OTL oh well. It's only Java xD;;;; Still went to Astronomy though… we have Carey for the next few weeks, he was one of my physics lecturers LOL (back when I did that like… 5 years ago. Oh god I'm old ¬.¬) And he did his trick with the coke bottle full of liquid nitrogen, sealed so the pressure builds, put under a plastic garbage bin (as a buffer) and yeah… basically it's a bomb ahahaha. But this one went to plan and just blew the bin up in the air… when I did physics and he did that trick, it blew the bin into pieces LMFAO.
Anyway… I'm still rather… melancholy, I guess ._. It's just so hard to comprehend all this… idk.
But this arvo myself and jinnizzle went into town (we both had some messages to do) which was nice, and she patiently listen to my rambling (about blogs) and sadness over Jasmine, even though I know she isn't into Versailles or anything <333 We went to the cheap arse cosmetic shop and I got some purple nail polish (if you need to wonder why purple, well…). It was actually kinda therapeutic to sit here tonight and use it, haha. And yes I know that makes me sound like a weirdo, but it really did make me feel a bit better, somehow. We also went to Myer and checked out the fragrances as always… came to the conclusion most of the guys' must smell like toilet, lulz. that was the Bvlgari one, wasn't it Jess? And I found the one Jasmine liked (which I know for a fact he likes… liked ._. The second-to-last blog he ever wrote, was about it ;o;) Anyway I sprayed that on a card and now it's sitting on my desk… it's really sweet (and weirdly enough, reminds me of Ken a little o.O that's one thing I remember from the BLOOD concert, was it was so sweaty and blah and then Ken would walk past on stage and you'd get this whiff of something sweet and lovely smelling ♥) The smell is fading now though, sad D: It's nowhere near as potent as that Egoiste shit, lmfao. I've got 2 cards with that sprayed on, and I put them in my drawer, so when you open it, it kinda smacks you in the face a little… so yeah, my drawer smells like Gackt xD;;;; (and Kisaki or whoever else wears that shit, I'm sure there's someone) It's not bad, I like it… it's just rather strong xD;;
But yeah, it was nice to just kinda hang out. And I lent her my Foolmate so she can enjoy Shou's pink lipgloss as much as me xD;;;; Oh that boy…
Anyway, I know I keep coming back to this lately, but really I can't seem to keep anything else in my mind… But more people have written about Jasmine in their blogs. Like I said yesterday, Kaya did… I think he was pretty reserved, I'm sure he's a lot more upset than it showed, but… it was really sweet ;3; I'll get to translating that, too. Though, someone has been translating various ones (I dunno if there's more coming, or not) and put them on a fansite, you can see it here. There's Juka and Soan's (which is still the most emotional I've seen ;o; but, I still want to translate it for myself) and randomly enough Asagi… people rarely translate Asagi blogs, because he has a habit of writing massive essay looking things… but I guess this was different (and not so long as usual). His actually made me tear up, too ;A;
It's all just so… weird. I think that even other artists are feeling that way, and that's what makes it all the more of a strange feeling… idk ._.
Oh yeah, jumping back to Kaya for a second, his blog entry was titled "Funerary Dream", which seems a little odd, but it's the name of one of his songs (one of my favs, actually) and having now looked up the lyrics, I think it's actually… strangely appropriate. Kaya said in his blog entry that he doesn't know any prayers, all he can do is sing… I feel that maybe Funerary Dream may take on new meaning, now. I don't think it's a coincidence he chose to title that entry that, because to me, I imagine it expresses his feelings a little… if you see the song perhaps, maybe I wouldn't sound like such an obsessed idiot ^^; This is the translated lyrics I got off a site, because I can't find the kanji and really what good would it do to anyone reading this, heh.
Softened pools of sunlight...
Flicker into shimmers of haze
And softly touch my eyes
Those peaceful days from back then,
So pale and fleeting now
Spill from the spaces between my fingers
Broken, disconnected
Your voice echoes like a buzzing in my ears
Did you know? I find myself searching still
For the touch of your fingers caressing my hair
A shallow sleep
At slumber's end
Reality peirces through
And the world reels
Where did you go?
Don't leave me here alone...
No matter how I call
No answer to be found...
Time will pass as if to crash down
Everything becoming but a dream
You voice will float within the wind
As I'll let myself sink deep into its depths
Meanwhile from far away
At the dreaming's very end
Fleetingly, transciently,
You'll smile and laugh still
Maybe? idk… Kaya wrote that long ago, though ^^; But I still think it's sort of… yeah.
Oh, and speaking of perfumes… A while back Versailles had this thing, I think it was a short dvd, actually, that came with a perfume… each member had one. You can get them on CD Japan, I'm thinking to get Jasmine's, because, well… actually I've been thinking for a long time, since I saw it, but I guess I didn't becaause it's a little expensive (>AU$50) but now… I guess I just don't want to miss out. plus, the aussie dollar is improving, slightly, against the yen lately… I suppose I shouldn't think it's too expensive when I happily spent US$60 on the BLAMHONEY cd(s), hah. I still want to get Kaya's Ophelia, so… maybe I should just get both at once, idk… まぁ、I'm so bad with decisions. But I feel like I should… I missed out on their photobook, and even getting a Prince/Princess single, so…
*sigh*
Anyway, on a different topic, for once we actually have some news of Masa :D I do miss him so… ;3; and if you don't know who Masa is, go watch that live version of Gackt's Vanilla and I'm sure you'll find him easily enough ^^; But I loved him for being in Marmarsa-Mu with Tak (who is guitarist of Calmando Qual/Twisted Clock and a zillion other bands he helps out with, as well he is friends with SiSeN and Kiwamu x3). But yeah, it's nice when Masa pops up every now and again, and this time it included Ren too! (again… see Vanilla xD, ah, I miss that GacktJOB lineup… and Chacha's amazing pink pants xD)
Though now i think about it (coz not surprisingly such things are on my mind the last few days) we nearly lost Masa a year ago… or was it 2 years, even? o.O;; I honestly can't remember, omg. But he nearly got himself killed in a motorcycle accident (on the day after Valentine's day D:) and for over a month afterwards even his band members didn't know how he was doing, coz he was still in hospital and only his family knew ._. He recovered though… but Marmarsa-Mu didn't last so much longer after… I guess it was a combination of Masa wanting to take a break and Tak being busy with 21653432 other bands, idk.
I do wish Masa still had a blog, though ;3; I miss it… hell, I wish he'd do something(with a band, preferably), I miss Masa-kun ;3; His english is cute… (though, I say that about nearly everyone, haha). Oh well… I'll use one of my Masa icons this time in honour of actually having some news on him, I have to stop using Jasmine sometime I guess ._. But Masa is also elegant (at the same time as being dorky) so it's ok <3
And I should probably stop rambling, I'm sure no one is reading this and I wouldn't blame them ¦D;;; My mind is just… so many places lately. It's hard to concentrate on one thing, or anything really… and when I do, it always somehow comes back to Jasmine T^T
じゃ、おやすみッス〜☆
Anyway… I'm still rather… melancholy, I guess ._. It's just so hard to comprehend all this… idk.
But this arvo myself and jinnizzle went into town (we both had some messages to do) which was nice, and she patiently listen to my rambling (about blogs) and sadness over Jasmine, even though I know she isn't into Versailles or anything <333 We went to the cheap arse cosmetic shop and I got some purple nail polish (if you need to wonder why purple, well…). It was actually kinda therapeutic to sit here tonight and use it, haha. And yes I know that makes me sound like a weirdo, but it really did make me feel a bit better, somehow. We also went to Myer and checked out the fragrances as always… came to the conclusion most of the guys' must smell like toilet, lulz. that was the Bvlgari one, wasn't it Jess? And I found the one Jasmine liked (which I know for a fact he likes… liked ._. The second-to-last blog he ever wrote, was about it ;o;) Anyway I sprayed that on a card and now it's sitting on my desk… it's really sweet (and weirdly enough, reminds me of Ken a little o.O that's one thing I remember from the BLOOD concert, was it was so sweaty and blah and then Ken would walk past on stage and you'd get this whiff of something sweet and lovely smelling ♥) The smell is fading now though, sad D: It's nowhere near as potent as that Egoiste shit, lmfao. I've got 2 cards with that sprayed on, and I put them in my drawer, so when you open it, it kinda smacks you in the face a little… so yeah, my drawer smells like Gackt xD;;;; (and Kisaki or whoever else wears that shit, I'm sure there's someone) It's not bad, I like it… it's just rather strong xD;;
But yeah, it was nice to just kinda hang out. And I lent her my Foolmate so she can enjoy Shou's pink lipgloss as much as me xD;;;; Oh that boy…
Anyway, I know I keep coming back to this lately, but really I can't seem to keep anything else in my mind… But more people have written about Jasmine in their blogs. Like I said yesterday, Kaya did… I think he was pretty reserved, I'm sure he's a lot more upset than it showed, but… it was really sweet ;3; I'll get to translating that, too. Though, someone has been translating various ones (I dunno if there's more coming, or not) and put them on a fansite, you can see it here. There's Juka and Soan's (which is still the most emotional I've seen ;o; but, I still want to translate it for myself) and randomly enough Asagi… people rarely translate Asagi blogs, because he has a habit of writing massive essay looking things… but I guess this was different (and not so long as usual). His actually made me tear up, too ;A;
It's all just so… weird. I think that even other artists are feeling that way, and that's what makes it all the more of a strange feeling… idk ._.
Oh yeah, jumping back to Kaya for a second, his blog entry was titled "Funerary Dream", which seems a little odd, but it's the name of one of his songs (one of my favs, actually) and having now looked up the lyrics, I think it's actually… strangely appropriate. Kaya said in his blog entry that he doesn't know any prayers, all he can do is sing… I feel that maybe Funerary Dream may take on new meaning, now. I don't think it's a coincidence he chose to title that entry that, because to me, I imagine it expresses his feelings a little… if you see the song perhaps, maybe I wouldn't sound like such an obsessed idiot ^^; This is the translated lyrics I got off a site, because I can't find the kanji and really what good would it do to anyone reading this, heh.
Softened pools of sunlight...
Flicker into shimmers of haze
And softly touch my eyes
Those peaceful days from back then,
So pale and fleeting now
Spill from the spaces between my fingers
Broken, disconnected
Your voice echoes like a buzzing in my ears
Did you know? I find myself searching still
For the touch of your fingers caressing my hair
A shallow sleep
At slumber's end
Reality peirces through
And the world reels
Where did you go?
Don't leave me here alone...
No matter how I call
No answer to be found...
Time will pass as if to crash down
Everything becoming but a dream
You voice will float within the wind
As I'll let myself sink deep into its depths
Meanwhile from far away
At the dreaming's very end
Fleetingly, transciently,
You'll smile and laugh still
Maybe? idk… Kaya wrote that long ago, though ^^; But I still think it's sort of… yeah.
Oh, and speaking of perfumes… A while back Versailles had this thing, I think it was a short dvd, actually, that came with a perfume… each member had one. You can get them on CD Japan, I'm thinking to get Jasmine's, because, well… actually I've been thinking for a long time, since I saw it, but I guess I didn't becaause it's a little expensive (>AU$50) but now… I guess I just don't want to miss out. plus, the aussie dollar is improving, slightly, against the yen lately… I suppose I shouldn't think it's too expensive when I happily spent US$60 on the BLAMHONEY cd(s), hah. I still want to get Kaya's Ophelia, so… maybe I should just get both at once, idk… まぁ、I'm so bad with decisions. But I feel like I should… I missed out on their photobook, and even getting a Prince/Princess single, so…
*sigh*
Anyway, on a different topic, for once we actually have some news of Masa :D I do miss him so… ;3; and if you don't know who Masa is, go watch that live version of Gackt's Vanilla and I'm sure you'll find him easily enough ^^; But I loved him for being in Marmarsa-Mu with Tak (who is guitarist of Calmando Qual/Twisted Clock and a zillion other bands he helps out with, as well he is friends with SiSeN and Kiwamu x3). But yeah, it's nice when Masa pops up every now and again, and this time it included Ren too! (again… see Vanilla xD, ah, I miss that GacktJOB lineup… and Chacha's amazing pink pants xD)
Though now i think about it (coz not surprisingly such things are on my mind the last few days) we nearly lost Masa a year ago… or was it 2 years, even? o.O;; I honestly can't remember, omg. But he nearly got himself killed in a motorcycle accident (on the day after Valentine's day D:) and for over a month afterwards even his band members didn't know how he was doing, coz he was still in hospital and only his family knew ._. He recovered though… but Marmarsa-Mu didn't last so much longer after… I guess it was a combination of Masa wanting to take a break and Tak being busy with 21653432 other bands, idk.
I do wish Masa still had a blog, though ;3; I miss it… hell, I wish he'd do something(with a band, preferably), I miss Masa-kun ;3; His english is cute… (though, I say that about nearly everyone, haha). Oh well… I'll use one of my Masa icons this time in honour of actually having some news on him, I have to stop using Jasmine sometime I guess ._. But Masa is also elegant (at the same time as being dorky) so it's ok <3
And I should probably stop rambling, I'm sure no one is reading this and I wouldn't blame them ¦D;;; My mind is just… so many places lately. It's hard to concentrate on one thing, or anything really… and when I do, it always somehow comes back to Jasmine T^T
じゃ、おやすみッス〜☆