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For some reason, right now I'm really down...
There's no particular reason for it; even that I'm not going with the parents to my brothers' on the 26th, because it would be overnight thus I'd need to bring Madeline and we'd be picking up a friend and her dog on the way home and my mother is bad at visualizing the luggage and animal carriers and presents shoved into the Highlander not to mention the extra two humans who would be sitting in back, and thus I'll be getting the guilt trip on Christmas and have to play the verbal runaround game with her because her memory is going (otherwise after 3 years of knowing about the central apnea and Madeline's self-appointed job waking me up at night she wouldn't just forget and think that the reason Madeline's coming along is because of *her* health needs). While frustrating...vibes are just sad tonight.
I just don't know.
I feel not unlike I did just before Christmas the year Brawn and Tamahome died. But this time there's no X-E Advent Calendar to put me in the Christmas mood.
--Zhora
There's no particular reason for it; even that I'm not going with the parents to my brothers' on the 26th, because it would be overnight thus I'd need to bring Madeline and we'd be picking up a friend and her dog on the way home and my mother is bad at visualizing the luggage and animal carriers and presents shoved into the Highlander not to mention the extra two humans who would be sitting in back, and thus I'll be getting the guilt trip on Christmas and have to play the verbal runaround game with her because her memory is going (otherwise after 3 years of knowing about the central apnea and Madeline's self-appointed job waking me up at night she wouldn't just forget and think that the reason Madeline's coming along is because of *her* health needs). While frustrating...vibes are just sad tonight.
I just don't know.
I feel not unlike I did just before Christmas the year Brawn and Tamahome died. But this time there's no X-E Advent Calendar to put me in the Christmas mood.
--Zhora