temptation
To drink or not to drink is the question. To cut or not to cut? To eat or not to eat? To talk or not to talk? These are all great questions. And I don't have answers to. I am in a dark place again. I feel defeated again. Unworthy to be loved. I need help. But to where do I go. I have asked a few and get nothing back. Where do I go. Idont feel worthy to go to God. I know he can take this pain away but why can't I humble myself enough to talk to Him. What is wrong with me? Where is my faith? Where is my hope? What do I do with my breaking heart?
I can numb it with alchol but i feel even worse in the morning because its a depressant. I could starting cutting again to help relieve the pressure. But do I really want to start doing that again. At the same time I kinda am doing it with the scab picking and all. Ok now I really really want to cut!!! great just great. Part of me dosent even want to fight it anymore. The other part wants me to go talk to someone. But who? Who do I go to where I feel comfortable with. Someone who will love me through this. Nope cant think of anyone.
I can numb it with alchol but i feel even worse in the morning because its a depressant. I could starting cutting again to help relieve the pressure. But do I really want to start doing that again. At the same time I kinda am doing it with the scab picking and all. Ok now I really really want to cut!!! great just great. Part of me dosent even want to fight it anymore. The other part wants me to go talk to someone. But who? Who do I go to where I feel comfortable with. Someone who will love me through this. Nope cant think of anyone.