Simplicity?!
I've been having this mental battle for the past few days now, that I cannot seem to put to rest. The issue is very complex and almost shameful, I'm just confused, that's all. Ha! Like being confused could BE something simple, ever since school started, I began to question if it's really what I wanted. I mean this IS what I've been working for the past year, but it doesn't seem to have that gratuitous and accomplished feeling that comes along with hard work.
But of course there are always those deeper issues that are even harder to explain, I want to figure out who I am. I want an answer that goes deeper then my name, my gender, my family, my morals. What made ME the person I am today? This topic may seem to over played, and cliche, I don't care though. Because it has risen bigger conflicts with in me, I am curious, I want to experience completely different things. I am anxious, I feel as if I am experiencing that first kiss again, in an odd sort of way. Am I making any sense?
I keep replaying one particular song over and over again, there's something about it that completely explains what I'm feeling. I can't quite place it though, certain words here and there that send goosebumps all over my body. It's as if a sudden cold wind passes through my entire body, sending chills up and down my spine. I have this constant need to talk and express every single thing going through my mind, it's virtually impossible though, as soon as I register that particular thought another has passed my mind that's even more intriguing. I have a constant desire to scream at the top of my lungs because I feel like I'm slipping from reality. How can I explain myself, to you the reader, when I can't even understand it?
But of course there are always those deeper issues that are even harder to explain, I want to figure out who I am. I want an answer that goes deeper then my name, my gender, my family, my morals. What made ME the person I am today? This topic may seem to over played, and cliche, I don't care though. Because it has risen bigger conflicts with in me, I am curious, I want to experience completely different things. I am anxious, I feel as if I am experiencing that first kiss again, in an odd sort of way. Am I making any sense?
I keep replaying one particular song over and over again, there's something about it that completely explains what I'm feeling. I can't quite place it though, certain words here and there that send goosebumps all over my body. It's as if a sudden cold wind passes through my entire body, sending chills up and down my spine. I have this constant need to talk and express every single thing going through my mind, it's virtually impossible though, as soon as I register that particular thought another has passed my mind that's even more intriguing. I have a constant desire to scream at the top of my lungs because I feel like I'm slipping from reality. How can I explain myself, to you the reader, when I can't even understand it?