The Thin Red Line
I'm battling with my own conscience. I feel so, so bad and so miserable that I don't know if I should go on being nice. Can someone tell me where to draw the line to doing good? I've been doing the chauffeuring, driving my cancer-stricken uncle to the hospital quite frequently (for at least twice a week) for the past 2 months (or is it longer, I lost count) for his medical check-ups and recently, his chemotherapy and radiotherapy sessions. Worse, I've been made full use by my aunt and my mum to run some errands sometimes.
And this morning, at 7.30am in the morning, in the midst of my peaceful sleep, I got a call from my uncle that I have to drive him to the hospital right away for his sessions. In my mind, I was like, "What the f**k!". But I regained my composure by being calm and told him I will pick him up soon, within and hour. And he told me, from today onwards, he has to go for his sessions everyday. And asked me if I could fetch him everyday and tell him the days I'm not free.
Frankly speaking, I'm not free everyday. This should explain my infrequent posts. Here I am, trying to prepare for my upcoming exam which will happen a week after Chinese New Year's day. On top of that, I still have one project to finish. I feel like giving up on the former. But that would mean absolute inconvenience to him and his kids. Yes, his sons. He has 2 sons. Older than I am and working. Suddenly it hit me. Shouldn't his sons be doing all these? Urrghhh... should I still be a part of it?