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The news right now is that I'm moving. I'm moving from Maryland with my parents to Missouri with a boy. All of my family has been wanting to know about him, especially since I'll be living with him several states away. Conveniently enough there was a baby shower for my cousin this weekend and everyone got to question me and give me advice. My aunt told me that when she first moved in with her husband, she was so scared and lonely she cried in the shower daily. My cousin said when she moved in with her husband, she cried for about a year for the same reason. Someone else there said they had done the same. They all kept telling me how brave I am and are warning me how scary and alone it will be...
I'm dying to get away from here. I never saw the "brave" part. I'm excited to be living with him and out there and to have something new. At the same time, I cry so much here and feel so trapped and alone and helpless and depressed, I feel like moving out there is going to fix that. I can understand what they mean, but I feel like moving out there will actually be much healthier and happier for me.
I just need to get out of this house. It's killing me.
I'm dying to get away from here. I never saw the "brave" part. I'm excited to be living with him and out there and to have something new. At the same time, I cry so much here and feel so trapped and alone and helpless and depressed, I feel like moving out there is going to fix that. I can understand what they mean, but I feel like moving out there will actually be much healthier and happier for me.
I just need to get out of this house. It's killing me.