May 14, 2007 21:33
so i almost forgot i had livejournal.
lots going on. finally out of my horrible rship with val. i love her. i will always love her. because deep down the good person is in there and that is the person i love. not the one who needs attention. because she really is amazing and some day she will realize that you dont need 100 non true friends just to feel love.
i have been chatting with a few girls lately. its kinda weird. i am definately in dating mode. still healing from my rship so i dont want to jump into anything. but i definately have lil crushes right now. and they are very weird crushes. 1 person shocks me completely. i never would have thought in a million that i would have crushed on her. but i think its because she brings me back to a place where i was when i was younger and was much less jaded in life. and that is a nice feeling.
im living back home at the moment. i am hoping to have my own studio or 1 bedroom in albany by august. but right now im saving up and paying off some debt. i could have a place sooner but i dont want a roomie. i just want my own place. to have my stuff and really concentrate on just me.
i have run into a lot of old friends lately which has made me sooo happy. but i definately miss living in albany. i dont get to see people like kiki very often because its an hour drive.
i am thinking about going back to school. either HVCC or Empire State online. online would be easier. im just not sure about it all yet. i just want to finish before im 30. i want a solid career and a house. so that at 30 i can start a family.
life is a lil crazy right now. but i am rebuilding. and letting go and rebuilding was the first step to things going right for me. karma is going to be on my side.