My week of madness
Here are some more highlights from my life. Things have seemingly calmed down a bit, and I am hopeful that I am in an upswing.
1. Celebrated my kids 3rd year on this planet with a trip to Sonoma Traintown with Tobias and I. We shunned the crazy family party, though we got TONS, and I mean TONS of pressure to have a big to-do for this birthday. "OH Anya needs her family right now." "Anya needs to know she is loved, right now." "It would be great if Anya could be with her whole family on her birthday." SHUT UP! I got so irked about the fantasy ideas the family has about what Anya's birthday SHOULD be. Until a week a go, I had caved and we had set up a picnic at the park. As the week wore on, I realized I really didn't want to deal with all the crazy family energy in the midst of my separation from Tobias. So, I stood up for myself, told the families that they are welcome to plan something for themselves but that Anya's birthday was going to be just her, Tobias and I. We ended up having a nice, mellow day, reminicing about Anya's birth and how she has grown.
2. So, just don't think that cuz Tobias and I spent time together that we are fixing our relationship, cus we're not. I truly feel "done" with my romantic relationship with Tobias, but since he is the father of my kid and he's a lovely person, I want us to continue being in each other's lives. As I spent the day with him, I kept waiting to see if he would bring up our relationship at all. I kept waiting to see if he would want to talk about "where he's at", but like our relationship, it took me prodding him for info about everything. I got a great dose of validation that I AM doinf the right thing and that, although he is a lovely person, it drives me fucking bonkers to extract every bit of information about him like I would extract a tooth.
3. I bought a shirt at Ross and it has taken 3 washings so far to get the nasty, skanky perfume smell out of it. SOme bitch probably wore it to a party then returned it. Unfortunately, I tossed the tags so I can't return it myself. Just proves to me how toxic and skanky perfume really is. 3 FUCKING WASHES! AND IT STILL REEKS!
4. Zepparella: I am in love! 4 really hot babes who ROCK OUT doing Zepplin cover tunes. They were sexy, girly-girls who could play their instraments and sing and act like Robert Plant. I was about 1 of ten women and 25 men who head-banged their way to glory Friday evening.
5. WEIRD, PERVERTED & FREAKY THOUGHT OF THE WEEK: When I cashier (and thank the Gods that I don't do it often anymore), a question that often enters my head is this: "Do you use those cucumbers/carrots/zucchini to masterabate with"? Yeah, I would never actually ask, but I am a curious kinda gal and questions like that often enter my perverted brain. I personally have never used veggies to get off, but there are people out there who do, and maybe some of them shop here. It is all organic, so no nasty persicides to enter into your hoochie.
1. Celebrated my kids 3rd year on this planet with a trip to Sonoma Traintown with Tobias and I. We shunned the crazy family party, though we got TONS, and I mean TONS of pressure to have a big to-do for this birthday. "OH Anya needs her family right now." "Anya needs to know she is loved, right now." "It would be great if Anya could be with her whole family on her birthday." SHUT UP! I got so irked about the fantasy ideas the family has about what Anya's birthday SHOULD be. Until a week a go, I had caved and we had set up a picnic at the park. As the week wore on, I realized I really didn't want to deal with all the crazy family energy in the midst of my separation from Tobias. So, I stood up for myself, told the families that they are welcome to plan something for themselves but that Anya's birthday was going to be just her, Tobias and I. We ended up having a nice, mellow day, reminicing about Anya's birth and how she has grown.
2. So, just don't think that cuz Tobias and I spent time together that we are fixing our relationship, cus we're not. I truly feel "done" with my romantic relationship with Tobias, but since he is the father of my kid and he's a lovely person, I want us to continue being in each other's lives. As I spent the day with him, I kept waiting to see if he would bring up our relationship at all. I kept waiting to see if he would want to talk about "where he's at", but like our relationship, it took me prodding him for info about everything. I got a great dose of validation that I AM doinf the right thing and that, although he is a lovely person, it drives me fucking bonkers to extract every bit of information about him like I would extract a tooth.
3. I bought a shirt at Ross and it has taken 3 washings so far to get the nasty, skanky perfume smell out of it. SOme bitch probably wore it to a party then returned it. Unfortunately, I tossed the tags so I can't return it myself. Just proves to me how toxic and skanky perfume really is. 3 FUCKING WASHES! AND IT STILL REEKS!
4. Zepparella: I am in love! 4 really hot babes who ROCK OUT doing Zepplin cover tunes. They were sexy, girly-girls who could play their instraments and sing and act like Robert Plant. I was about 1 of ten women and 25 men who head-banged their way to glory Friday evening.
5. WEIRD, PERVERTED & FREAKY THOUGHT OF THE WEEK: When I cashier (and thank the Gods that I don't do it often anymore), a question that often enters my head is this: "Do you use those cucumbers/carrots/zucchini to masterabate with"? Yeah, I would never actually ask, but I am a curious kinda gal and questions like that often enter my perverted brain. I personally have never used veggies to get off, but there are people out there who do, and maybe some of them shop here. It is all organic, so no nasty persicides to enter into your hoochie.