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anyone who knows me really really well, knows how much i hate change. well tonight it fucking hit me how much a lot in my life has changed. and it hit me hard. some things are finally setting in such as: im not dorming this year. my best friend is away at school. and pretty much everyone else. thank god i have paul. i dont know whats worse.. not dorming or not having my best friend home. i know that my family is going to drive me fucking crazy and i also kno that i dont have anywhere to go when they do. im stuck here. and one person who can make me feel better is 4 hours away at school. i mean paul is great at making me laugh and having a fun time but i need the emotional part. and i fucking hate how much i feel about this guy. i let myself fall for a guy who left. great. amazing. im so good at picking guys. i dont know what to do with myself anymore. i need a way of getting over him. and quickly. because its driving me insane.
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