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Ever had that feeling where someone doesn't want to see you? I've had that for the past 2 days with my boyfriend. I called him and asked him what he was doing. He said,"haning with Kevin then seeing you." My reply to that was,"I'm leaving at 4. I told you yesterday I had plans later on in the evening". He said that he'd hang out with me tomorrow. Slight problem there seeing as I'm working at 3 which really means I have to be in work around 2:50 and I'm getting my prom dress fitted earlier in the day. He says okay well I have practice at 3 so I'll come see you at work then we can hang out afterwards. I told him I already had plans with Chelly and Sonjar. He said okay well then I screwed up. He said he thought I was working today, but I told him no. I don't expect him to know my work schedule, but I did tell it to him on Sunday or Saturday when it was posted and when I found out. This vacation is turning out to be really lame. It's raining and I want it to stop. I want it to be sunny so I don't have to sit in this house doing nothing. I want my boyfriend to want to see me. I guess that'd be asking for too much. I knew this would happen. If I didn't call him and ask him to hang out, we wouldn't see each other. I think this proves my point that he expects me to wait around for him. Hmmm...funny how I didn't this time and this is what happens. I'm such a wench when I get a bad mood and I hate everyone. I just feel like retreating to my room and crying for no reason. I'm not even that stressed out, but I feel like nothing has been going right lately. I hate the fact that I get pissy when other people can't plan. It's not always a good thing to be planned out and organized. That can lead to disappointment because plans fall through and what not.
I miss this time last year. I went everywhere and did everything. Last year Chelly and I would be watching Mike and Brett play some lax. Tonight Mike and Brett would be sleeping on my couch and we'd try to go to Taco Bell at 10:30 to find out they were closed. My dad would come home too drunk to realize that two boys were sitting on my couch and Brett would get all nervous. Mike would quote every single line from Finding Nemo. Chelly and I would make Mike the fish that gets all bloated when he's angry. We'd laugh and be like two little kids falling in love. Kirstin and I would go to the beach and freeze. Glyn and I would go to the beach. She'd draw penises in the sand and we'd find an SUV parked in the "Compact Cars only" spot. It was sunny and it wasn't raining. I had something to do every day and I was always running somewhere with someone. yeah I want that vacation back. That was one of the best vacations I've had....this Christmas is the only one that comes even close and that one seems further away than last year's april vacation. I think I was satisified last vacation. It was the beginning and the end of so many different relationships and just things in general.
I need to learn how to do that again
I miss this time last year. I went everywhere and did everything. Last year Chelly and I would be watching Mike and Brett play some lax. Tonight Mike and Brett would be sleeping on my couch and we'd try to go to Taco Bell at 10:30 to find out they were closed. My dad would come home too drunk to realize that two boys were sitting on my couch and Brett would get all nervous. Mike would quote every single line from Finding Nemo. Chelly and I would make Mike the fish that gets all bloated when he's angry. We'd laugh and be like two little kids falling in love. Kirstin and I would go to the beach and freeze. Glyn and I would go to the beach. She'd draw penises in the sand and we'd find an SUV parked in the "Compact Cars only" spot. It was sunny and it wasn't raining. I had something to do every day and I was always running somewhere with someone. yeah I want that vacation back. That was one of the best vacations I've had....this Christmas is the only one that comes even close and that one seems further away than last year's april vacation. I think I was satisified last vacation. It was the beginning and the end of so many different relationships and just things in general.
I need to learn how to do that again