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prom was last night and it was fanastic.
Darin brke up with me a little while ago. I feel numb and I feel...stupid. I'm hurt, but not really. I wish this was all a dream and it isn't. This was probably the worst possible time this could happen, but then again you might as well get me while I'm down. I want to be strong, but it hurts. It hurts so badly. I guess I can just focus on my studies and focus on work and all the other things that come with the end of school. But school is going to end and I'm going to fully enjoy a summer to myself....yet again. I was looking forward to going up on the lake with his parents and stuff. I guess it's better for him to not lie to me for the next 3 months. He wrote me a really nice note and gave me a flower. I saw the flower and note sitting on the seat. I thought it was going to be a cute love note. I opened it and saw Charlene _________ Fearnley.... and I skimmed down to see I am so sorry Darin. I didn't even bother reading the note, but I just stared at it, letting the feeling wash over me. I felt so stupid and it felt so surreal. I keep crying and not, and I couldn't even look at him. I didn't want to leave because that finalizes everything. I couldn't talk my w ay out of it, but I didn't want to beg him to stay with me. I spend all that money on prom knowing I'd be able to wear it again. I just wish this didn't have to happen now. There's never really a good time for it....is there?
I think I'm going to go pretend like I'm going to bed.
Goodnight
prom was last night and it was fanastic.
Darin brke up with me a little while ago. I feel numb and I feel...stupid. I'm hurt, but not really. I wish this was all a dream and it isn't. This was probably the worst possible time this could happen, but then again you might as well get me while I'm down. I want to be strong, but it hurts. It hurts so badly. I guess I can just focus on my studies and focus on work and all the other things that come with the end of school. But school is going to end and I'm going to fully enjoy a summer to myself....yet again. I was looking forward to going up on the lake with his parents and stuff. I guess it's better for him to not lie to me for the next 3 months. He wrote me a really nice note and gave me a flower. I saw the flower and note sitting on the seat. I thought it was going to be a cute love note. I opened it and saw Charlene _________ Fearnley.... and I skimmed down to see I am so sorry Darin. I didn't even bother reading the note, but I just stared at it, letting the feeling wash over me. I felt so stupid and it felt so surreal. I keep crying and not, and I couldn't even look at him. I didn't want to leave because that finalizes everything. I couldn't talk my w ay out of it, but I didn't want to beg him to stay with me. I spend all that money on prom knowing I'd be able to wear it again. I just wish this didn't have to happen now. There's never really a good time for it....is there?
I think I'm going to go pretend like I'm going to bed.
Goodnight