meh.

[moonlitdarkness]

i've been so alone for so long,
forgotten by the world,
forgotten to myself.
your effervescent eyes have awakened me and brushed the dust away,
but i knew you'd never stay.
so i memorized the color of your eyes as i lost myself inside you.
i memorized the way our legs entwined as i drifted off beside you.
i miss, god, i miss waking up beside you...

at night i cling to you,
i'm so afraid,
afraid the day will come and i'll wake up and find you gone.
but you promise that you'd not abandon me and kissed my fears away.
but i woke up to that day...

but i had memorized the way our eyes would meet,
reflected in the bathroom mirror,
and i memorized your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair.
i miss, god i miss, waking up beside you...

i've been so alone for so long,
i forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone.
but i'd memorized how warm your body felt as you lay half asleep beside me.
and i memorized the way the sunlight filled the room and played upon your body...

i miss, god i miss, waking up beside you.

disappointed.
sad panda.