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nothing says "fuck you" more than hoping to find some cute clothes at a skinny store (well they have plus size... Somewheres!!!) and feeling so embarrased that you look for anything to buy so you don't look stupid (to yourself). Cuz obviously a fat women in clothes?! Bah! She think she'll find something to fit her body?!
I'm crying in the target bathroom. I can't get over how I look.. Or how I feel.. How anyone is possibly attracted to me. WHY is that guy at work attracted to me so much? I'm almost 270 pounds. Who could love this?! Obviously Nathan is blinded!
I'm just feeling really depressed right now. As if that wasn't broadcasted well enough. Now to dry my tears and head home.. And try to find clothes online.
I wish I hadn't quit my gym now but would I go? Probably not. Will I exercise at home? No will power. I don't even have enough money to stuff my face anymore.. Yet I'm still fat as always if not more. I need 1200 calorie diet. Sigh.
I'm crying in the target bathroom. I can't get over how I look.. Or how I feel.. How anyone is possibly attracted to me. WHY is that guy at work attracted to me so much? I'm almost 270 pounds. Who could love this?! Obviously Nathan is blinded!
I'm just feeling really depressed right now. As if that wasn't broadcasted well enough. Now to dry my tears and head home.. And try to find clothes online.
I wish I hadn't quit my gym now but would I go? Probably not. Will I exercise at home? No will power. I don't even have enough money to stuff my face anymore.. Yet I'm still fat as always if not more. I need 1200 calorie diet. Sigh.