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where do i start. i come to realize that i speak chinese and quiet fluently. but the problem it that i live in america and very few of you accually take the time to learn chinese. my english is broken. but you know i think i get by. im haveing a melencholy night, none of those "friends" i mean friends of mine called me back. maybe its my horrible foot odor and the dont want me to take off me shoes in their house. oh well enough of thise would someone please teach me english. its a difficult language supposedly the most difficult in the damn world.
but this wasnt what i wanted to type about was it.
oh well lets et down to the meat of the situation since im feeling it.
you have 5 patrons sitting at a bar. you yourself are one of them.
now youve come to an uncomfortable silence, and you know its got to be you to break it. well lets see now. lets give the first person seated at the bar a value of A, lets give the second a value of B and the third value of C and D and sofourth.
so at this point youve formulated some things to say in your head not all of them important in fact the opposite, because who wants to hear about important shit when they are drinking (exept me.. but thats a different lesson) afterall it would kill the mood.
anyway, this first thought youve formulated it sounds good to you but will it sound good to everyone else. so you test it mentally, almost like a science project. the results come in, the statement works for A works for B works for C but does not work for D. ahh a problem. ok ok. lets try to amend the statement. revised statement, results, does not work for A works for b, c, d, ect. what ive come to realize is that no statement will work for all variables. and that is the very souce of my unrest in a crowd
now normally, who the fuck cares might you say, but here is the thing. what if i say the thing that is good foer A B C but not for D and then out of nowhere D developes a a complex that haunts him for the rest of his life, he loses sleep over it, in the end he may end up comiting suicide just because of that tiny thing i said.
HOW DO I DEAL WITH KNOWING THAT MY EVER ACTION HAS UNORSEEN CONCECUENCES.
ANMGUISH. RESPONSIBILIty............ RUBBISH?
i may never know... oh but i do oh so well. i so it all around me. maybe it just that i dont have the balls to go around killing .
maybe i shoudl grow some teeth and swim with the sharks.
eh im dont, if you understood this give me some advice. but i know you wont. goodnight.
much love to you all.
but this wasnt what i wanted to type about was it.
oh well lets et down to the meat of the situation since im feeling it.
you have 5 patrons sitting at a bar. you yourself are one of them.
now youve come to an uncomfortable silence, and you know its got to be you to break it. well lets see now. lets give the first person seated at the bar a value of A, lets give the second a value of B and the third value of C and D and sofourth.
so at this point youve formulated some things to say in your head not all of them important in fact the opposite, because who wants to hear about important shit when they are drinking (exept me.. but thats a different lesson) afterall it would kill the mood.
anyway, this first thought youve formulated it sounds good to you but will it sound good to everyone else. so you test it mentally, almost like a science project. the results come in, the statement works for A works for B works for C but does not work for D. ahh a problem. ok ok. lets try to amend the statement. revised statement, results, does not work for A works for b, c, d, ect. what ive come to realize is that no statement will work for all variables. and that is the very souce of my unrest in a crowd
now normally, who the fuck cares might you say, but here is the thing. what if i say the thing that is good foer A B C but not for D and then out of nowhere D developes a a complex that haunts him for the rest of his life, he loses sleep over it, in the end he may end up comiting suicide just because of that tiny thing i said.
HOW DO I DEAL WITH KNOWING THAT MY EVER ACTION HAS UNORSEEN CONCECUENCES.
ANMGUISH. RESPONSIBILIty............ RUBBISH?
i may never know... oh but i do oh so well. i so it all around me. maybe it just that i dont have the balls to go around killing .
maybe i shoudl grow some teeth and swim with the sharks.
eh im dont, if you understood this give me some advice. but i know you wont. goodnight.
much love to you all.