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there is nothing i want more right now then a shot of heroin. i want it because everything in my life is collapseing down around me like a hailstorm of flameing volcanic ash. some girl is painting me out of be a stalker just because i made a comment about her eyes and pointed out that her boyfriend is a controling prick, which was probobly meddling on my part and thusly wrong. im missing my best friends bachleor party because its 21 and up and I am the best man. im stuck in a dead aend job that could never even pay for part of an apartment. the fact that no one online that i try to hang out with will even talk to me let alone give me a chance. yes a shot of heroin would be divine. that rush filling every cavity inside my body pinning me to the chair... the warmth of the embrace of 1000 beautiful women without the demands of a sexual workout. you feel as if youve touched god. i want it now. or i want to die. either is an acceptable end, this is not a cry for help and ill be alive tomarrow. but this is my state of affairs. this is how my life really is. i would love a shot of heroin right now.