Looking Back.

[moonlit_dream08]

Looking back at my journals from 2010. 2011. 2012. You really start seeing the rises and falls. The ups and downs, the waves, the patterns. All of the thoughts and passions and emotions

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[shmannah]

It's been a hard year, and we've lost a lot of wonderful people. It's so difficult, at this age, to understand that death is just a part of life. We think death is just for old people, but it isn't. I know that isn't a comfort, but my point is that everyone goes through this. Everyone loses people. And you aren't alone in it, so shutting down is the opposite of what you need to do. Go through it with your friends and your loved ones and others who loved those people who are gone now.

I know we aren't super close, but you know that I'm always here if you need anything, even if it's just to talk or cry or whatever. You're gonna be ok.

[moonlit_dream08]

It is definitely difficult coming to terms with loss, but it sinks in a little more to the acceptance side every day. Feelings like the one in this journal come and go in waves, as does everything else. I've cried and talked it out a bit since I wrote this, and it has helped me to approach rather than avoid the way it's been affecting me. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to feel the pain, and it's okay to miss them. It's all just a part of life, and I'm definitely not alone. I've woken up a bit to approaching it head-on instead of avoiding the pain, and I'm working through it