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I don't know what this post is about. I just really felt like posting. Maybe I'm just lonely. I dunno.
I might be making a new friend. I dunno about this either. it takes me a long time to make friends. I've been talking to this girl at work (skyler) for about half a year now. we're on the same team so we're around each other most days and eat at the same table on our breaks. we talk about hanging out pretty often and only live a few blocks from each other, but never get to it. she mostly is into drinking though and I'm not into that. Otherwise we seem to have a lot in common. We're both random, avoid acting "like girls" and from what we've both been hinting, we both seem to deal with lots of self-hatred and a desire to make very close relationships, but the inability to be vulnerable enough to allow people to get that close to us. She's more trusting at first than I am, but has pretty much grown up along the same path of bullshit people as I have. She's also growing to hate people, which I already do. Its odd hating people, but being able to be entirely friendly, if not bubbly. Overall, everyone at work *likes* me because I am so friendly, but I wouldn't mind smashing their faces in with a bat and eating part of the remains. I'd claim to be anti-social but I don't take advantage of people for my own benefit. I just have a constant yearning for their suffering. But Skyler is ok in general. A little bit of an opportunist when it comes to attention-getting, and one of her top priorities in life is drinking, but she hasn't fucked with me any yet. She seems to show genuine enjoyment of my company in fact, which I'm not used to. Now that I've mentioned this on my LJ, I'll have jinxed this friendship. muahaha. So i guess this post is dedicated to skyler. woo. once it warms up, Fargo is going to be on fire with our hijinx (did I mention that we're both retardedly destructive, if not retarded in general? well, this LJ will likely be a confession of the shit we pull. you'll see). It'll be good to go out with a bang before I move.
I might be making a new friend. I dunno about this either. it takes me a long time to make friends. I've been talking to this girl at work (skyler) for about half a year now. we're on the same team so we're around each other most days and eat at the same table on our breaks. we talk about hanging out pretty often and only live a few blocks from each other, but never get to it. she mostly is into drinking though and I'm not into that. Otherwise we seem to have a lot in common. We're both random, avoid acting "like girls" and from what we've both been hinting, we both seem to deal with lots of self-hatred and a desire to make very close relationships, but the inability to be vulnerable enough to allow people to get that close to us. She's more trusting at first than I am, but has pretty much grown up along the same path of bullshit people as I have. She's also growing to hate people, which I already do. Its odd hating people, but being able to be entirely friendly, if not bubbly. Overall, everyone at work *likes* me because I am so friendly, but I wouldn't mind smashing their faces in with a bat and eating part of the remains. I'd claim to be anti-social but I don't take advantage of people for my own benefit. I just have a constant yearning for their suffering. But Skyler is ok in general. A little bit of an opportunist when it comes to attention-getting, and one of her top priorities in life is drinking, but she hasn't fucked with me any yet. She seems to show genuine enjoyment of my company in fact, which I'm not used to. Now that I've mentioned this on my LJ, I'll have jinxed this friendship. muahaha. So i guess this post is dedicated to skyler. woo. once it warms up, Fargo is going to be on fire with our hijinx (did I mention that we're both retardedly destructive, if not retarded in general? well, this LJ will likely be a confession of the shit we pull. you'll see). It'll be good to go out with a bang before I move.