Death is my gift

[moonflowerz]

Today was a day of death. The strange thing is that I really didn't feel sad or bothered by it... I feel peaceful and like part of the great wheel. One of my residents, she's been actively dying for days with her family members draped around her bedside, holding her hand and telling her it was ok to just go. They finally decided it was ok to leave, just for a short while to grab a bite to eat, and she slipped away in silence and in solitude. Was she waiting for them to exhale before she could do so herself? Another little old guy woke up today telling everyone goodbye and that today is his last day on earth. Hours later his eyes rolled back in his head and he stopped breathing for a few moments. He was wisked back to bed and placed on oxygen and the staff walked out of the room shaking their heads and with tears in their eyes. I slipped into his room alone, placed my hand on his forehead and spoke to him in my thoughts. He was breathing again and I felt my hands warm as he began to stir. Suddenly he opened his eyes and really LOOKED at me. Through me. He looked surprised. He then went back to sleep. I know in my heart that he will be gone before midnight.

Just another day at the nursing home. Goodbye sweet friends, and may goddess speed your way.