As much as I'm NOT looking forward to returning to work, I'm so ready for this whole "sickness" ordeal to be over with. It's awfully hard to feel like a superhero with all this fatigue and people looking at me like the expect me to fall over at any minute. They mean well and all, but it's just so not me. I'm ready to just move on with my life already. I'm still getting cards in the mail though, and I confess they have me feeling all weepy and sentimental. It's just weird to be on the receiving end of all this. One of my alzheimers residents signed the get well card I received today with "happy birthday." I thought that was so flippin cute I could cry.
The first of the bills have started arriving too. I nearly choked when I opened the main hospital one.
$9,741.
I haven't even had surgery yet. Yes I have insurance but there will still be thousands left unpaid and that just really REALLY bothers me. I swear I just got out of debt :(
I'm trying hard to stay positive about this. I did really really enjoy the movie I rented the other day (Brokeback mountain) although yes, that's also a tearjerker. It's one of those movies that stays with you for days and I'd recommend to anyone. I still keep thinking about it.
Today I found some sweet diversion in kicking some demon ass on Diablo and watching my dogs play outside with the hose. It's so hot outside that who has energy for anything else?