weird times weird times
hello beautiful ppl...
man o man... my life is so weird right now.. i mean first i go good.. no sex :'( then no drugs, no bad ppl.. and no being mean! i like it but its weird its like sucking all the poison out of my life which feels like im being reborn in a odd way.
today i slept forever.. got 17 hours.. u yeah.. actually i went to bed at 2 am and got up at 8pm soooo... 18 hours! dang well now i feel so tired.. i am really glad tho cuz now today i dont have to eat ne thing even tho its almost one. this diet with my friend is really easy when u get hungry just drink water and if u feel really weak just eat a grape or something.
yesterday i was at jessica protetch's house until like 1 30 and all we did was laugh a LOT and now my ribes are hurtn and watch THE O.C. good show good show. shes got this crush on this one kid but hes obsessed with this other girl and i really want him to realize nothings going to happen even if she likes him back and he should go for jessica and she is one of the sweetest gurls i know.
then their are ur old friends and i found out my old best friend is prego. and im happy she fucked up her life and if she kills her baby cuz shes too irresponsible and cant do the right thing. i swear i will murder her b4 she can kill it or just lock her up 9 months in my guest room and make her have it and then kill her. muahahaha jk. but i really think shes a murderer u shouldnt have sex if u cant take care of a baby if u cant fix ur mistake the right way if i ever got pregnant when i was having sex i would live with it and have the baby and not be embarrest or ne thing. i found out her boyfriend raped his x girlfriend he had for two years and thatss why they broke up and tara went from nothing to everything in a week so fuck u tara have fun dieing when u give birth cuz u gave into pier pressure.. now whos the hippocrite BITCH!!!! stupid whores in howell i hate how girls think they have to do everything to get a guy.. not true i found a guy where u dont.
well i found out my x boyfriend got my x best friend pregnant too.. now theyre both whores.. well i guess they went better together ne ways....same age.
i goals in life are to have my own talk show...to be a chiropractor.... and possibly do wut my family said i would be best at... stripper.. i went to a strip club during the summer with my x boyfriend and all his friends and i felt outta place there and i was really weird then i got pretty buzzzzzzzzzzed and got on the table and then the table somehow turned into a pole then a few hours later i was hanging out with the strippers and had some x dont remember the rest of that night but i woke up at my dads house who works midnights and had a job application from the club and it had a message next to it and it said to call then and come in that friday to see if they really want want me. the i say pix of me from john and it was really amusing cuz that was the first time i ever did ne thing like that... that was my breaking point into turning into a bad kid. i am the type of child who was deprived as a kid so i am craving for attention and i used to look in the completely wrong places and ppl.
ok i wanna know what i get to find out about on tuesday!! its gonna kill me man. i am going crazy now!!
have u ever felt really dirty and u did something u regret so much u want to kill urself and pray for recarnation so u can make u into a new someone and have ur personality and actions removed completely from ur body and mind. but then u not be lucky enought o live again and die but even that is worth it to u cuz its like every look in to mirror makes u want to throw ur fourhead into it and take every peice of glass that is next to u and cut urself five times per piece. then go into a hot shower and dump salf into the bottom and put the plug in and lay down as u feel the pain slowly seep into ur soul trying to take the pain of hurting so many people away but it doesnt work so u just grab the remaining piece of glass, the big one that will take ur life away from ur hateful being and cut times deeper five times along ur neck go under the water never to return to the ppl that loved and forgave u for being who u were and doing what u did ever again. GOOD BYE WORLD.. one more cruel person gone!
i was thinking about why ppl date in highschool and theyre so seriuos with it. the only way ill ever date again in highschool is if i can just see the guy cuz its not worth it and it wont last. especially with me cuz i am bound to be alone my whole life.. runs in my blood! i will be depressed abusive or a door matt. thats why im praying god lets me die b4 i turn 18 so i dont have to do it myself. theirs no way i will let myself turn into my parents and i know im wont fall far from the tree!
LOVE ALWAYS~
ALLISON JESUS MUFFIN MOONER!!
and for ne one else who asks me NO I DO NOT DEAL FUCKING NE THING NE MORE I DONT POP OR SNIFF OR SMOKE OR DRINK OR INJECT SO STOP ASKING FOR STUFF
man o man... my life is so weird right now.. i mean first i go good.. no sex :'( then no drugs, no bad ppl.. and no being mean! i like it but its weird its like sucking all the poison out of my life which feels like im being reborn in a odd way.
today i slept forever.. got 17 hours.. u yeah.. actually i went to bed at 2 am and got up at 8pm soooo... 18 hours! dang well now i feel so tired.. i am really glad tho cuz now today i dont have to eat ne thing even tho its almost one. this diet with my friend is really easy when u get hungry just drink water and if u feel really weak just eat a grape or something.
yesterday i was at jessica protetch's house until like 1 30 and all we did was laugh a LOT and now my ribes are hurtn and watch THE O.C. good show good show. shes got this crush on this one kid but hes obsessed with this other girl and i really want him to realize nothings going to happen even if she likes him back and he should go for jessica and she is one of the sweetest gurls i know.
then their are ur old friends and i found out my old best friend is prego. and im happy she fucked up her life and if she kills her baby cuz shes too irresponsible and cant do the right thing. i swear i will murder her b4 she can kill it or just lock her up 9 months in my guest room and make her have it and then kill her. muahahaha jk. but i really think shes a murderer u shouldnt have sex if u cant take care of a baby if u cant fix ur mistake the right way if i ever got pregnant when i was having sex i would live with it and have the baby and not be embarrest or ne thing. i found out her boyfriend raped his x girlfriend he had for two years and thatss why they broke up and tara went from nothing to everything in a week so fuck u tara have fun dieing when u give birth cuz u gave into pier pressure.. now whos the hippocrite BITCH!!!! stupid whores in howell i hate how girls think they have to do everything to get a guy.. not true i found a guy where u dont.
well i found out my x boyfriend got my x best friend pregnant too.. now theyre both whores.. well i guess they went better together ne ways....same age.
i goals in life are to have my own talk show...to be a chiropractor.... and possibly do wut my family said i would be best at... stripper.. i went to a strip club during the summer with my x boyfriend and all his friends and i felt outta place there and i was really weird then i got pretty buzzzzzzzzzzed and got on the table and then the table somehow turned into a pole then a few hours later i was hanging out with the strippers and had some x dont remember the rest of that night but i woke up at my dads house who works midnights and had a job application from the club and it had a message next to it and it said to call then and come in that friday to see if they really want want me. the i say pix of me from john and it was really amusing cuz that was the first time i ever did ne thing like that... that was my breaking point into turning into a bad kid. i am the type of child who was deprived as a kid so i am craving for attention and i used to look in the completely wrong places and ppl.
ok i wanna know what i get to find out about on tuesday!! its gonna kill me man. i am going crazy now!!
have u ever felt really dirty and u did something u regret so much u want to kill urself and pray for recarnation so u can make u into a new someone and have ur personality and actions removed completely from ur body and mind. but then u not be lucky enought o live again and die but even that is worth it to u cuz its like every look in to mirror makes u want to throw ur fourhead into it and take every peice of glass that is next to u and cut urself five times per piece. then go into a hot shower and dump salf into the bottom and put the plug in and lay down as u feel the pain slowly seep into ur soul trying to take the pain of hurting so many people away but it doesnt work so u just grab the remaining piece of glass, the big one that will take ur life away from ur hateful being and cut times deeper five times along ur neck go under the water never to return to the ppl that loved and forgave u for being who u were and doing what u did ever again. GOOD BYE WORLD.. one more cruel person gone!
i was thinking about why ppl date in highschool and theyre so seriuos with it. the only way ill ever date again in highschool is if i can just see the guy cuz its not worth it and it wont last. especially with me cuz i am bound to be alone my whole life.. runs in my blood! i will be depressed abusive or a door matt. thats why im praying god lets me die b4 i turn 18 so i dont have to do it myself. theirs no way i will let myself turn into my parents and i know im wont fall far from the tree!
LOVE ALWAYS~
ALLISON JESUS MUFFIN MOONER!!
and for ne one else who asks me NO I DO NOT DEAL FUCKING NE THING NE MORE I DONT POP OR SNIFF OR SMOKE OR DRINK OR INJECT SO STOP ASKING FOR STUFF