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Choose 15 people from your friends list at random.
Write something about/to each of them.
Don't tell anyone who the statements are about. Good or bad. No matter how they beg!
1. You exist in the place that I thought as a little girl with my library books we would all grow into, that existed when school was done and over and we were grown-ups. Now I'm on the verge of grown-uphood and look, I'm further than I ever was before from where you are. But we can visit, yes? I will live with you on your mountain eventually. Even while I wait for noisy trains amid the underground crowd, I'm moving towards you. I am.
2. You betrayed me, and you know it. I could take a snobbish sort of pleasure in your reasons, but I don't. Why was I such a threat to you? I never meant to harm you, and I never wanted anything that was yours. Whoever wounded you so that you could think I'd do the same deserves something terrible. I am not your enemy, and I never was. You were very foolish to do what you did.
3. I should have saved you when I had the chance, but then we'd be even more entwined than we are now. I was absolutely terrified of your love. I'm sorry. I was so bad to you, and all my apologies aren't enough. Done is done, right? But I still have a long run of regret to go.
4. You are such a comfort. I think you know that at least nominally, but really, and truly, you have pulled me up from such muck so many times without even realizing it. I love your humor, and I love how my humor joins with yours. I owe you termendously, and I love you dearly.
5. Something between us never quite clicked. We stared at each dumbly and sweetly and maybe a little suspiciously. I like you a lot though. I like to observe you, and I marvel that you exist at all. I don't think we can ever be close, but I still want to hear about you, and think about you. You are like a character in a book who crops up every now and then, always utterly herself, and utterly inaccesible. Fictional.
6. You made me uneasy when I first met you, and still do. Is life really that sunny? Everything is so peachy in your world, and even when its not, the situation is easily remedied. Of course your life isn't that simple, but the image you project is.
7. We thoroughly screwed up, didn't we? Maybe in another few years it'll be amusing, but right now we haven't spoken in six months and our distance is widening, not closing. I suppose it was bound to happen. Our bond was a shaky one from the start, hairline fractures of jealousy and insecurities and confused laughter crisscrossing us like scars. Then we shattered. It seemed inevitable, but at the same time, we had such good times. Laughing til we wheezed asthmatic, and all that silliness. I really liked you.
8. I've heard them mention you-- maybe did I meet you? I don't think so. But I like Amelie too.
9. I've never met you either, but I admire you intensely. Or at least I admire the girl you project yourself as being. She's lacy and spunky and full of a certain feminine life. I wish you had come back to camp, I wish that we had met. But, like me, you were a one-timer. Maybe someday we'll meet. Til then I'll just badger our mutual acquaintances for anecdotes about you.
10. I admire you most. You exist in the level deeper than every one else, or you exist simultaneously on several. I like your mix of dark and light, I like how you see the humor in awful things. Your dreams never bore me. I love that I never have to explain anything to you, always you "get it", usually before I'm even done saying it. I'm really lucky to know you.
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Its only ten, because I only have ten friends on my list...I think some are fairly obvious. I hope I don't get any hate mail thanks to this.
-K.
Write something about/to each of them.
Don't tell anyone who the statements are about. Good or bad. No matter how they beg!
1. You exist in the place that I thought as a little girl with my library books we would all grow into, that existed when school was done and over and we were grown-ups. Now I'm on the verge of grown-uphood and look, I'm further than I ever was before from where you are. But we can visit, yes? I will live with you on your mountain eventually. Even while I wait for noisy trains amid the underground crowd, I'm moving towards you. I am.
2. You betrayed me, and you know it. I could take a snobbish sort of pleasure in your reasons, but I don't. Why was I such a threat to you? I never meant to harm you, and I never wanted anything that was yours. Whoever wounded you so that you could think I'd do the same deserves something terrible. I am not your enemy, and I never was. You were very foolish to do what you did.
3. I should have saved you when I had the chance, but then we'd be even more entwined than we are now. I was absolutely terrified of your love. I'm sorry. I was so bad to you, and all my apologies aren't enough. Done is done, right? But I still have a long run of regret to go.
4. You are such a comfort. I think you know that at least nominally, but really, and truly, you have pulled me up from such muck so many times without even realizing it. I love your humor, and I love how my humor joins with yours. I owe you termendously, and I love you dearly.
5. Something between us never quite clicked. We stared at each dumbly and sweetly and maybe a little suspiciously. I like you a lot though. I like to observe you, and I marvel that you exist at all. I don't think we can ever be close, but I still want to hear about you, and think about you. You are like a character in a book who crops up every now and then, always utterly herself, and utterly inaccesible. Fictional.
6. You made me uneasy when I first met you, and still do. Is life really that sunny? Everything is so peachy in your world, and even when its not, the situation is easily remedied. Of course your life isn't that simple, but the image you project is.
7. We thoroughly screwed up, didn't we? Maybe in another few years it'll be amusing, but right now we haven't spoken in six months and our distance is widening, not closing. I suppose it was bound to happen. Our bond was a shaky one from the start, hairline fractures of jealousy and insecurities and confused laughter crisscrossing us like scars. Then we shattered. It seemed inevitable, but at the same time, we had such good times. Laughing til we wheezed asthmatic, and all that silliness. I really liked you.
8. I've heard them mention you-- maybe did I meet you? I don't think so. But I like Amelie too.
9. I've never met you either, but I admire you intensely. Or at least I admire the girl you project yourself as being. She's lacy and spunky and full of a certain feminine life. I wish you had come back to camp, I wish that we had met. But, like me, you were a one-timer. Maybe someday we'll meet. Til then I'll just badger our mutual acquaintances for anecdotes about you.
10. I admire you most. You exist in the level deeper than every one else, or you exist simultaneously on several. I like your mix of dark and light, I like how you see the humor in awful things. Your dreams never bore me. I love that I never have to explain anything to you, always you "get it", usually before I'm even done saying it. I'm really lucky to know you.
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Its only ten, because I only have ten friends on my list...I think some are fairly obvious. I hope I don't get any hate mail thanks to this.
-K.