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It's hard going to work everyday trying to hide the pain that's consumed me (Heaven knows work prior to this revelation was already bad enough). I recently found out the truth. I suspected it for years... When I saw the proof in writing, it didn't even phase me for the rest of that night because I pretty much dealt with the pain early on. Although I found out even more, it's almost worse than what I had thought. A lot of times I'm told that I over-analyze and over-think things. And for the past several years I had come close to convincing myself that I just jumped to conclusions. But the more I think of it now and realize that I was spot-on, and the more I process it, the worse it hurts. I kept my mouth shut to the ones it involved for all those years in fear that, whether I was wrong or right, it would have destroyed more than just my own life.