rent

[mooncyclegodess]

I woke up this morning
hearing the worry in your voice last night
the doubt and the fear
that I might only be here for what you can give me
the worry worming it's way into your certainty
the doubt eating at your trust in me
you said you'd only ask me once
but you aren't remembering
you've asked me before

so I woke up
with some clarity
I have to remember
only I can take care of me
and I should have left leaning on you
for a real emergency
like sickness
or amputation

and here I am being melodramatic again

but I should know better
we are dating
not married
not committed like that yet
it's not my place to ask
it's not your place to give
this is my shit to clean up and take care of
I should know better
I'm sorry if I've pushed you too fast
into a place you're not ready to go to

I'm sorry