-pain........i can't talk-
hey...yesterday was one of the worst days of my life, i haven't cried like that in years...but i'm not going to tell you why. so don't ask me.
today was...well, short and groggy....kinda hard to see, because today i got my wisdom teeth taken out and they exposed my 12yr molers....which means they drilled bone out of my jaw, and actually removed some of the gum and gum tissue from the tops of those molars.
jeff was there earlier then we were so he could be there for me.
they put me under...i didn't notice myself going out but i do remeber that in the hour of surgery that i woke up 3 times and went back to sleep....and i had laughing gas and the mask was right in front of me so it's all i saw really and they had my glasses off and i had and i-v cuz i had not be allowed food or drink of any kind other than to take my birth control this morning......so yeah.
at least the doc was cute...lol
they gave me 600mgs of ibprofen and i'm only allowed to take it 3 times a day and it's not helping AT ALL i'm going nuts....it really really hurts. i'm trying to to voice it out loud to mom and i didn't voice it all that much to jeff while he was here but now the the numbing is fadding....it's hurting alot and bleeding alot.....let me just tell ya....some blood is okay, but when you take a sip of tea and it's more blood then tea...water...or even sugar that is what is made of tea....then it is bad...it is gross.....it is nasty....and i was not ready for it....hense i didn't enjoy it one bit.
jeff just left so he could get home by 8.
we don't know when he'll get the truck back for sure,
but we hope it's soon
i'm going with him thursday to gainsville (if i'm any better) to see paperwork and gallavant basically.
anyways....i don't know what much there is left to say
there are a few things on my mind that i really really want to say but i won't.
i have lakefront furious with me and her daughter is very very pissed as well...and i've been beating myself up an chewing myself up about it soooooooooooooo so much and i can't help it....i know i know...i just...grrrrrrrrr........the only thing i could have actually done i didn't do...i wasn't thinking and that's the major MAJOR problem i wasn't thinking about anything but what she wanted and i couldn't get off it.
i am feeling more regret this day and yesterday then i have ever felt....i regret this so much more than casey....or daniel....or dee......or even indida herself.
those of you who know what i'm talking about know what i mean......which should be only one or two at the most....the rest of you DON'T EVEN DARE TO FUCKING ASK ME...because i will not talk about it to you i won't say anything to you...i don't want to be hounded about this. so stay the fuck out of it.
anyway, my mouth and my neck and everything are in a lot of pain right now and sense the shitty med they gave me isn't doing much at all....i'm going to go now and fix a new ice pack.
today was...well, short and groggy....kinda hard to see, because today i got my wisdom teeth taken out and they exposed my 12yr molers....which means they drilled bone out of my jaw, and actually removed some of the gum and gum tissue from the tops of those molars.
jeff was there earlier then we were so he could be there for me.
they put me under...i didn't notice myself going out but i do remeber that in the hour of surgery that i woke up 3 times and went back to sleep....and i had laughing gas and the mask was right in front of me so it's all i saw really and they had my glasses off and i had and i-v cuz i had not be allowed food or drink of any kind other than to take my birth control this morning......so yeah.
at least the doc was cute...lol
they gave me 600mgs of ibprofen and i'm only allowed to take it 3 times a day and it's not helping AT ALL i'm going nuts....it really really hurts. i'm trying to to voice it out loud to mom and i didn't voice it all that much to jeff while he was here but now the the numbing is fadding....it's hurting alot and bleeding alot.....let me just tell ya....some blood is okay, but when you take a sip of tea and it's more blood then tea...water...or even sugar that is what is made of tea....then it is bad...it is gross.....it is nasty....and i was not ready for it....hense i didn't enjoy it one bit.
jeff just left so he could get home by 8.
we don't know when he'll get the truck back for sure,
but we hope it's soon
i'm going with him thursday to gainsville (if i'm any better) to see paperwork and gallavant basically.
anyways....i don't know what much there is left to say
there are a few things on my mind that i really really want to say but i won't.
i have lakefront furious with me and her daughter is very very pissed as well...and i've been beating myself up an chewing myself up about it soooooooooooooo so much and i can't help it....i know i know...i just...grrrrrrrrr........the only thing i could have actually done i didn't do...i wasn't thinking and that's the major MAJOR problem i wasn't thinking about anything but what she wanted and i couldn't get off it.
i am feeling more regret this day and yesterday then i have ever felt....i regret this so much more than casey....or daniel....or dee......or even indida herself.
those of you who know what i'm talking about know what i mean......which should be only one or two at the most....the rest of you DON'T EVEN DARE TO FUCKING ASK ME...because i will not talk about it to you i won't say anything to you...i don't want to be hounded about this. so stay the fuck out of it.
anyway, my mouth and my neck and everything are in a lot of pain right now and sense the shitty med they gave me isn't doing much at all....i'm going to go now and fix a new ice pack.