updates on life
Well, a lot has happened since I've posted (those random 'Murdoc fucks 2D' things don't count as posts). My mom was cheating on my dad. He got a restraining order against her so he wouldn't kill her if she came home (he has a lot of anger mangement issues, and he LIED in the form, saying she pulled a knife on him so he could get the restraining order), and so she was gone. It was horrible, because I missed her so much and because part of me hated her for hurting us all like she did. She's never done anything bad. She's always been as close to perfect as someone can get. And then she went and did something like this. 'Pulled a Paula', as my sister would say. Things are better now. They're working things out, so she's at home and they're working on their marriage. I should be completely happy about it, but I'm still pissed off that she would do something like that.
A little over a year ago, I was so innocent and optimistic about everything, and so naive. Now, I've gotten so cynical, and it makes me sad. So many people close to me tried to kill themselves over the course of three months, my mom started fucking a hobo, my best friend turned into an alcoholic, everybody started almost dying in car crashes. And no, I'm not starting a bitchfest about my life, because it's all fine and dandy now and I'm really grateful to have things back to as close to normal as they've ever been, I just wish that I hadn't become so... emotionally old. I don't deal with things well, and so I take everything hard like this. But it's all good now. I just wish I could be little again. I AM ridiculously happy all the time for no reason still, so I have that much left of childhood.
Christmas was fabulous, because the day before Christmas Eve my parents stopped wanting to kill each other and so my mom came home, and they seemed happy on Christmas. We got my sister her pink guitar... I think she said it was a Les Paul or something of that nature, I wasn't paying enough attention. She loves it, and she can play it really well already. I wish I could have been a rock star when I was 12 XD I also got her Slowboat to Hades, which we still haven't watched for some reason XD and she got me the second Gravitation DVD, which is amazing. I LOVE yaoi, and Shuichi and Yuki are so cute together. My whole family got me a combination digital camera/video camera/mp3 player thing, which is so amazing and I love it. I've been shooting video all weekend and making everyone want to kill me. But it's fun, and I'm annoying by nature, anyway.
We went to the mall the other day, and I got some body spray that sparkles and is pink and smells like muffins! It's so cool! I'm a little obsessed with it, because it's so cool. I got some strawberry spray, too. I'm such a girl XD We also watched Bad Santa a while ago, and now my entire family is obsessed with Thurman Merman. He's so cool.
I think I want my cute pink journal layout again. Some people think I'm weird because I'm a quote unquote "goth", and I'm obsessed with everything pink and sparkly. I don't get labels. But I guess if they want to call me a goth, it's better than other things I could be called XD like a dweeb or something.
My dent is getting really deep. It feels like the whole top of my head is caving in now, and when I push on it I can squish my skull up and down. I think I should get it checked out or something, because I don't know if I'm just being paranoid, but I can feel the top of my skull touching my brain or something like that. It's a little bit scary.
I found an RP buddy,
shinysilvercoin She's really cool and I give her props. She's fun to talk to ^_^
And I got a myspace (yes, I'm a whore): http://www.myspace.com/moonchild10
Stalk meeeeeee >:B
And I put that giant "Murdoc Niccals fucks Stuart Tusspot" thing in my sig at g-play, and now I think all the Murdoc fangirld hate me XD Who cares? They're whiny and immature anyway most of time. But Murdoc is hawt, I agree with them there.
Well, I need to open a nice big can of shut the fuck up now. Bye, everybody! Happy New Year! And Merry Belated Christmas! <3 <3 <3 I think I'll go practice my bass.
A little over a year ago, I was so innocent and optimistic about everything, and so naive. Now, I've gotten so cynical, and it makes me sad. So many people close to me tried to kill themselves over the course of three months, my mom started fucking a hobo, my best friend turned into an alcoholic, everybody started almost dying in car crashes. And no, I'm not starting a bitchfest about my life, because it's all fine and dandy now and I'm really grateful to have things back to as close to normal as they've ever been, I just wish that I hadn't become so... emotionally old. I don't deal with things well, and so I take everything hard like this. But it's all good now. I just wish I could be little again. I AM ridiculously happy all the time for no reason still, so I have that much left of childhood.
Christmas was fabulous, because the day before Christmas Eve my parents stopped wanting to kill each other and so my mom came home, and they seemed happy on Christmas. We got my sister her pink guitar... I think she said it was a Les Paul or something of that nature, I wasn't paying enough attention. She loves it, and she can play it really well already. I wish I could have been a rock star when I was 12 XD I also got her Slowboat to Hades, which we still haven't watched for some reason XD and she got me the second Gravitation DVD, which is amazing. I LOVE yaoi, and Shuichi and Yuki are so cute together. My whole family got me a combination digital camera/video camera/mp3 player thing, which is so amazing and I love it. I've been shooting video all weekend and making everyone want to kill me. But it's fun, and I'm annoying by nature, anyway.
We went to the mall the other day, and I got some body spray that sparkles and is pink and smells like muffins! It's so cool! I'm a little obsessed with it, because it's so cool. I got some strawberry spray, too. I'm such a girl XD We also watched Bad Santa a while ago, and now my entire family is obsessed with Thurman Merman. He's so cool.
I think I want my cute pink journal layout again. Some people think I'm weird because I'm a quote unquote "goth", and I'm obsessed with everything pink and sparkly. I don't get labels. But I guess if they want to call me a goth, it's better than other things I could be called XD like a dweeb or something.
My dent is getting really deep. It feels like the whole top of my head is caving in now, and when I push on it I can squish my skull up and down. I think I should get it checked out or something, because I don't know if I'm just being paranoid, but I can feel the top of my skull touching my brain or something like that. It's a little bit scary.
I found an RP buddy,
shinysilvercoin She's really cool and I give her props. She's fun to talk to ^_^
And I got a myspace (yes, I'm a whore): http://www.myspace.com/moonchild10
Stalk meeeeeee >:B
And I put that giant "Murdoc Niccals fucks Stuart Tusspot" thing in my sig at g-play, and now I think all the Murdoc fangirld hate me XD Who cares? They're whiny and immature anyway most of time. But Murdoc is hawt, I agree with them there.
Well, I need to open a nice big can of shut the fuck up now. Bye, everybody! Happy New Year! And Merry Belated Christmas! <3 <3 <3 I think I'll go practice my bass.