A new start....
I just finished reading Abi's Blog and this one kind of connects to her. It's funny how both of us really connects in some ways.
She modeled today with May. It started funny but after we were near the end some sort of unwanted events happend.
As always GuGu wanted to cancel the meeting today for the practice. To be honest I really had enough with all of this. Abi even decided to just do the auditions for the dancers.
After a while Randy called and told me he is on his way with GuGu to Starbucks where Abi,May and I were.
When they arrived,the atmosphere was pretty awkward for everyone. I guess the boys felt how pissed off Abi and I were somehow. But unlike Abi...I was sacastically laughing.
Anyway,the talk started and after a few minutes I switched with Randy our seats to be beside GuGu.
I told him that Abi and I weren't in anyway trying to lecture him in a bad way but rather we care about him a lot.
I watched how he was playing with his fingers and bag. How uneasy he was while Abi and I were talking to him.
And then there it was....
"I'm used to it everyday..."
Those words...the way he looked.
Do you know how much such thing can affect you?
I felt soo sorry for him.
I felt like crying for him.
He couldn't even look at either Abi nor at me.
He even smiled croocked...like he wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.
The sight was heartbreaking.
GuGu got soo much talent yet he isn't using it since no one is giving him a chance to prove himself.
It even seemed like his parents gave up on him.
Abi and I tried afterwards to make the situation a little less awkward and I started to make them laugh some how and I loved it how he started laughing about our "Yes,Ate"-Joke.
After a little while I went out of Starbucks to smoke. May and Abi also went after me and I asked Abi to call GuGu out.
We had our little talk. I even asked him if he was mad in anyway at me or at Abi. If he was hurt by the words we said and out of nowhere he hugged me and said "Thank You".
I felt happy for him that he was looking it in a possitive way.
I know that he only grew up with the wrong people but right now...he is being guided by the right people.
It will take a while till everything goes smooth but Abi and I know we can make this happen.
I know that this is a new start for him...for everyone of us.
She modeled today with May. It started funny but after we were near the end some sort of unwanted events happend.
As always GuGu wanted to cancel the meeting today for the practice. To be honest I really had enough with all of this. Abi even decided to just do the auditions for the dancers.
After a while Randy called and told me he is on his way with GuGu to Starbucks where Abi,May and I were.
When they arrived,the atmosphere was pretty awkward for everyone. I guess the boys felt how pissed off Abi and I were somehow. But unlike Abi...I was sacastically laughing.
Anyway,the talk started and after a few minutes I switched with Randy our seats to be beside GuGu.
I told him that Abi and I weren't in anyway trying to lecture him in a bad way but rather we care about him a lot.
I watched how he was playing with his fingers and bag. How uneasy he was while Abi and I were talking to him.
And then there it was....
"I'm used to it everyday..."
Those words...the way he looked.
Do you know how much such thing can affect you?
I felt soo sorry for him.
I felt like crying for him.
He couldn't even look at either Abi nor at me.
He even smiled croocked...like he wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.
The sight was heartbreaking.
GuGu got soo much talent yet he isn't using it since no one is giving him a chance to prove himself.
It even seemed like his parents gave up on him.
Abi and I tried afterwards to make the situation a little less awkward and I started to make them laugh some how and I loved it how he started laughing about our "Yes,Ate"-Joke.
After a little while I went out of Starbucks to smoke. May and Abi also went after me and I asked Abi to call GuGu out.
We had our little talk. I even asked him if he was mad in anyway at me or at Abi. If he was hurt by the words we said and out of nowhere he hugged me and said "Thank You".
I felt happy for him that he was looking it in a possitive way.
I know that he only grew up with the wrong people but right now...he is being guided by the right people.
It will take a while till everything goes smooth but Abi and I know we can make this happen.
I know that this is a new start for him...for everyone of us.