Bored at work again
So another one of my friends from High School is getting married. This time I'm invited though. My very best friend from Middle and High School actually. It's been about a year and a half since I talked to her and she had just broken up with a guy then. Makes me wonder if they got back together (Hmmm I have his aim so I should check!). I'm really happy for her and I hope she found a guy that is as wonderful as she deserves.
~~~Begnining of long, drawn out, emo thought post~~~
Thinking about her makes me wonder what would have happened if I'd gone to college with her after all. I almost did. In the end JMU won out and I can't really imagine who I would be today if I had gone there. Most likely I would have married Ryan (Toms that is) since one reason (of many) we broke up was I was so far away and wouldn't/couldn't marry him until after graduation and he wouldn't wait. Oh we would have gotten divorced most likely but who knows. I probably wouldn't have left Bedford (I would have gone to a collage about 30 min away from home rather then 2 hours and would have most likely found a job in Bedford after graduation like my friend did). I wouldn't have met any of my wonderful JMU friends. The KKC wouldn't exsist. I most likely would never have gone to an anime con (Remember it was Yoshiko freshman year who really showed me anime) and I'd never gone through my fling phase (ok so I could live w/out a few of them ;) ). In short - I'd be a very different person then I am today.
It's really quite a terrifying thought. But on the flip side I would have had a lot of other good things happen I'm sure! Or I would hope. It's like one of those You-Make-the-Decision books that I used to read when I was younger. I would always cheat and read both endings before choosing the one I decided was my 'decision.' Somehow even then my story usually ended up with the girl pregnate or worse (and of course being welcomed by the church with open arms while in tears, b/c that was how the bad ones always ended up) cause I was like that even before I found my true self in collage. Hmm....I guess that thought was appropriate to the post. I really don't think I found out who I was untill collage. I had some beginnings of the real me and I'll always carry those lessons and experiances I had with me but as I look back now I LIKE who I've become. Sure I'm not perfect. I whine (as Sky has so thoughtfully reminded me of lately :-P <3), I've made some bad choices, I've spent more then I've saved, I play WoW too much and I can be moody; but overall? I like me :) And I love all you guys out there in LJ land (and beyond!) with all my heart!!! I can't be too bad if I have friends like you!!!!!!!!!!!
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~~~Begnining of long, drawn out, emo thought post~~~
Thinking about her makes me wonder what would have happened if I'd gone to college with her after all. I almost did. In the end JMU won out and I can't really imagine who I would be today if I had gone there. Most likely I would have married Ryan (Toms that is) since one reason (of many) we broke up was I was so far away and wouldn't/couldn't marry him until after graduation and he wouldn't wait. Oh we would have gotten divorced most likely but who knows. I probably wouldn't have left Bedford (I would have gone to a collage about 30 min away from home rather then 2 hours and would have most likely found a job in Bedford after graduation like my friend did). I wouldn't have met any of my wonderful JMU friends. The KKC wouldn't exsist. I most likely would never have gone to an anime con (Remember it was Yoshiko freshman year who really showed me anime) and I'd never gone through my fling phase (ok so I could live w/out a few of them ;) ). In short - I'd be a very different person then I am today.
It's really quite a terrifying thought. But on the flip side I would have had a lot of other good things happen I'm sure! Or I would hope. It's like one of those You-Make-the-Decision books that I used to read when I was younger. I would always cheat and read both endings before choosing the one I decided was my 'decision.' Somehow even then my story usually ended up with the girl pregnate or worse (and of course being welcomed by the church with open arms while in tears, b/c that was how the bad ones always ended up) cause I was like that even before I found my true self in collage. Hmm....I guess that thought was appropriate to the post. I really don't think I found out who I was untill collage. I had some beginnings of the real me and I'll always carry those lessons and experiances I had with me but as I look back now I LIKE who I've become. Sure I'm not perfect. I whine (as Sky has so thoughtfully reminded me of lately :-P <3), I've made some bad choices, I've spent more then I've saved, I play WoW too much and I can be moody; but overall? I like me :) And I love all you guys out there in LJ land (and beyond!) with all my heart!!! I can't be too bad if I have friends like you!!!!!!!!!!!
~~~End Sentimental Crap~~~~