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My mom is being such a bitch i swear! I wanna go to the mall with nick, she doesnt know i wanna go with him but that is why, because he goes to his brother's on the weekend and i wont be able to see him. And next week the days im getting off work i am busy and wedsday i have color guard and i have been wanting to spend time with him but i havent had the chance. All i wanna do is see him i have barely seen him all week! It isn't fair i will go to the mall i dont give a fuck what the hell my mother says i'll go home and do what she wants all nice like she wants! BUT I HATE her sometimes i swear i just wanna scream at her hit her! I just wanna spend time with my boyfriend is that so wrong?! FUCK i just wanna say that over and over again! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! All i want to do is see him or be with him but i dont get the chance and i feel like crying right now but i'm in class so that wouldnt be a good thing! Why does he have to go to his brother's damn! all i wanna do is spend a couple hours with him but it seems everything is stopping me it's not like i wanna go have sex with him just spend a little time with him yet i cant even do that it isn't fair! I hate her i hate her i hate her so much right now! I wish she would get off her i must control everything and let me have a little bit of a life well guess what she better enjoy what control she has now cause i have one year and five days left of her controlling me then she wont ever be able to again! I swear if it is the last thing i do i will NOT be living with my parents after i turn 18 i will get outta there i do anything i have to but i will NOT stay there!