Another Post!
The world is ending! lol
Anyways. I love fall so much! It smells so wonderful and fresh...*sigh* I wish I had my apartment now so I could sit out on my balcony. Or open my sliding door so that fresh air would fill the apartment...*dreamy look*
Back to reality. My room is a disaster area and it has me all out of sorts. I can't take the clutter at all. I feel caged and uncomfortable, and generally depressed - which I can partly atribute to the state of my living area. It seems like such a daunting task to even begin, no starting place presents itself. And then to just add to the mess - I have an ant infestation inside my walls, so any type of food that may be left in the trash brings out HORDES of teeny little ants marching across my carpet and closet door. I mod podged the top of the closet where it meets the wall, and that seemed to stem the flow, but has not stopped the problem, I have to be extremely careful about what I keep in my room, which is hard considering I do everything in my room including cook. So there is always food there. Grawr. Unhappiness. I went 9 FRIGGIN MONTHS with not 1 bug problem around my room, and then 22 FRIGGIN DAYS before I leave, I have to deal with ants. How sucky is that. Totally bad karma. grrrr
I haven't seen my parents in awhile, and I have to return their vacuum cleaner. I don't want to. I like their vacuum, and it takes care of all the little ants when they come out. Plus I just don't feel like going home. *sigh* I love my parents and all, but I don't particularly want to deal with them right now. Not to mention the questions about church, when I actually haven't been to church since I left home. It's not that I don't like church, it's more the fact that the ones I am relatively comfortable at are so far away. Not a really good excuse, considering I haven't even thought to look for a different church around my area. bleh - it is weighing down on me alot and I hate lying to my parents about it. I don't like the feeling.
Even through it all, the spark that makes butterflys in my stomach is the prospect of moving. he feeling it provokes is like an entirely new change - almost re-invent myself type feeling. Of course I know that it is an entirely new change, everything is going to be different, but it's the thought that I can hopefully try to change along with it that makes me slightly giddy.
Halloween seems like it is going to be so much fun! Kris is having a little get toghether thingy at her house, and she invited Justin and I to join her and Aiken, and a few others. Kris and I plan on going to a costume place and pick up some stuff to dress up with. I think it will be fun. ^^ I can't wait to meet her kitties. Jack is going to be upset when i get back home - he will know I cheated on him with others of the feline species lol.
Geez...I seem to be updating actual posts alot lately. Strange... =^~=
Anyways. I love fall so much! It smells so wonderful and fresh...*sigh* I wish I had my apartment now so I could sit out on my balcony. Or open my sliding door so that fresh air would fill the apartment...*dreamy look*
Back to reality. My room is a disaster area and it has me all out of sorts. I can't take the clutter at all. I feel caged and uncomfortable, and generally depressed - which I can partly atribute to the state of my living area. It seems like such a daunting task to even begin, no starting place presents itself. And then to just add to the mess - I have an ant infestation inside my walls, so any type of food that may be left in the trash brings out HORDES of teeny little ants marching across my carpet and closet door. I mod podged the top of the closet where it meets the wall, and that seemed to stem the flow, but has not stopped the problem, I have to be extremely careful about what I keep in my room, which is hard considering I do everything in my room including cook. So there is always food there. Grawr. Unhappiness. I went 9 FRIGGIN MONTHS with not 1 bug problem around my room, and then 22 FRIGGIN DAYS before I leave, I have to deal with ants. How sucky is that. Totally bad karma. grrrr
I haven't seen my parents in awhile, and I have to return their vacuum cleaner. I don't want to. I like their vacuum, and it takes care of all the little ants when they come out. Plus I just don't feel like going home. *sigh* I love my parents and all, but I don't particularly want to deal with them right now. Not to mention the questions about church, when I actually haven't been to church since I left home. It's not that I don't like church, it's more the fact that the ones I am relatively comfortable at are so far away. Not a really good excuse, considering I haven't even thought to look for a different church around my area. bleh - it is weighing down on me alot and I hate lying to my parents about it. I don't like the feeling.
Even through it all, the spark that makes butterflys in my stomach is the prospect of moving. he feeling it provokes is like an entirely new change - almost re-invent myself type feeling. Of course I know that it is an entirely new change, everything is going to be different, but it's the thought that I can hopefully try to change along with it that makes me slightly giddy.
Halloween seems like it is going to be so much fun! Kris is having a little get toghether thingy at her house, and she invited Justin and I to join her and Aiken, and a few others. Kris and I plan on going to a costume place and pick up some stuff to dress up with. I think it will be fun. ^^ I can't wait to meet her kitties. Jack is going to be upset when i get back home - he will know I cheated on him with others of the feline species lol.
Geez...I seem to be updating actual posts alot lately. Strange... =^~=