funny girl.

[moonbend]

i am in the oddest mood this evening.
don't know how to describe it, really.
feeling quite anti-productive, actually.
maybe i'm in the throes of senioritis.
or something.
i've done 1 sketch.
out of 30. good start.
i'll finish tomorrow.
haven't finished cropping my pictures.
thus have not posted them here.
i will soon. i promise.
haven't written e-mails that i need to write.
i will soon. i must.
if i don't i might hurt someone's feelings.
i try to avoid that at all costs.
always have. probably always will.
but it never ceases to amaze me.
damn being good-natured.
screw being trusting.
benefit of the doubt?
where has that gotten me?
i just let people walk all over me.
i've grown accustomed to those footprints.
will they stop?
probably not.
will i change? will i learn?
never have. probably never will.
i did do laundry tonight.
anti-productivity that emulates productivity.
procrastination at its finest.
i love clean sheets.
especially enchantingly soft sheets.
like mine. they are orgasmic.
makes me not want to get out of bed.
ever. maybe i won't.

...at least not until tomorrow morning.