10 Day Meme: Day One
So I'm doing that thing. Ten days, ten topics. Gotta find a use for this LJ, maybe jump-start it again, who knows?
--->>Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
--Ten things I want to say to ten different people right now.
1)You do a lot for me. Too much, I think sometimes. I feel like I need to find some way to make all that work more..."worth it". I look at myself, and I look at what you've done for me, and I feel almost ashamed at how fucked my life has gotten. It hasn't been all my fault, but it's been enough my fault for me to be able to do something about it. I feel manipulative and unworthy, and I wish I could be a better person.
2)I don't think you'll ever really know how much you fucked my life over. There are a lot of things I'd have liked to say to you back then, if only to make you hurt as much as you hurt me... But in the end, as I grow older myself, I've come to understand you better. First, I feared you. Then, I hated you. Now? Now I pity you. You're nothing but a ghost to me now.
3)I'll probably never know you. I actually don't feel all that bad about that. Someone like me coming into your life would probably be just a complication. But we share blood, and I'd like to meet you some day, and I hope you have I better childhood than I did.
4)I care about you, even though we've never met in person. I feel screwed sometimes, obsessing over someone I may never have a chance with. I know on some level we may be too different. But judging from what you've shown me of yourself, I can see you're a shining soul and I wish you'd take the time to notice your own light more often. It's as obvious as the Sun in the sky to me.
5)I haven't been walking on your path for very long, considering, but along the way I've grown to know you as someone wise and capable. Even if you stumble along the way, know that I, and the rest of the people who care about you, will be there to offer you a hand back onto your feet. It'll take some doing, but you'll get where you're going some day. Run as fast or as slow as you need to. We'll keep pace.
6)I wasn't a very god provider for you, and sometimes was an even worse friend. You gave me your all, and I owe you a debt I can never repay. You deserved better than me.
7)You've got a mind on you, and stories to tell, and worlds to build. You inspire me to greater heights, and I'm glad Fate saw fit to throw us at each other. Kinda wish we could actually chat some time though. Timezones suck. And not in the drippy fun way.
8)I don't know if you even remember me. A part of me hopes not. I did some stuff to you that a friend ought not to. I hope where ever you are, you're happy and doing well for yourself. If you do remember me, i hope we might one day meet again. Start things over.
9)You're fucked. Blunt, yes, but true. I think you never really grew up. You're afraid of the world, and need someone else to guide you by the hand. You assume no one else can understand your problems, and that may be right. But they can't even try if you won't admit them to yourself. If you don't face your shadow, it'll grow too big for you to handle on your own, and swallow you up. The thing I think I hate most about you is, I see myself in you. And it frightens me.
10) ....ummm. I don't really have anyone else. If I think of something It'll go here then.
So that was...that. DONGS! Come back tomorrow, for the next nine more days.
--->>Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
--Ten things I want to say to ten different people right now.
1)You do a lot for me. Too much, I think sometimes. I feel like I need to find some way to make all that work more..."worth it". I look at myself, and I look at what you've done for me, and I feel almost ashamed at how fucked my life has gotten. It hasn't been all my fault, but it's been enough my fault for me to be able to do something about it. I feel manipulative and unworthy, and I wish I could be a better person.
2)I don't think you'll ever really know how much you fucked my life over. There are a lot of things I'd have liked to say to you back then, if only to make you hurt as much as you hurt me... But in the end, as I grow older myself, I've come to understand you better. First, I feared you. Then, I hated you. Now? Now I pity you. You're nothing but a ghost to me now.
3)I'll probably never know you. I actually don't feel all that bad about that. Someone like me coming into your life would probably be just a complication. But we share blood, and I'd like to meet you some day, and I hope you have I better childhood than I did.
4)I care about you, even though we've never met in person. I feel screwed sometimes, obsessing over someone I may never have a chance with. I know on some level we may be too different. But judging from what you've shown me of yourself, I can see you're a shining soul and I wish you'd take the time to notice your own light more often. It's as obvious as the Sun in the sky to me.
5)I haven't been walking on your path for very long, considering, but along the way I've grown to know you as someone wise and capable. Even if you stumble along the way, know that I, and the rest of the people who care about you, will be there to offer you a hand back onto your feet. It'll take some doing, but you'll get where you're going some day. Run as fast or as slow as you need to. We'll keep pace.
6)I wasn't a very god provider for you, and sometimes was an even worse friend. You gave me your all, and I owe you a debt I can never repay. You deserved better than me.
7)You've got a mind on you, and stories to tell, and worlds to build. You inspire me to greater heights, and I'm glad Fate saw fit to throw us at each other. Kinda wish we could actually chat some time though. Timezones suck. And not in the drippy fun way.
8)I don't know if you even remember me. A part of me hopes not. I did some stuff to you that a friend ought not to. I hope where ever you are, you're happy and doing well for yourself. If you do remember me, i hope we might one day meet again. Start things over.
9)You're fucked. Blunt, yes, but true. I think you never really grew up. You're afraid of the world, and need someone else to guide you by the hand. You assume no one else can understand your problems, and that may be right. But they can't even try if you won't admit them to yourself. If you don't face your shadow, it'll grow too big for you to handle on your own, and swallow you up. The thing I think I hate most about you is, I see myself in you. And it frightens me.
10) ....ummm. I don't really have anyone else. If I think of something It'll go here then.
So that was...that. DONGS! Come back tomorrow, for the next nine more days.