Another Day
Well.. things are certainly changing in life and I stand facing them head-on, powerless to stop a single wind blowing my way. YADA YADA YA... Things are pretty good considering the recent events. I had an epiphany that my best friend has slipped beyond me. I do not have the same friend I had all those years ago. I'm starting to see her in a different light and it makes me want to live in darkness or kill Thomas Edison. But even then I think a little part of me would know she is distant. She's been that way for a while- but now more than ever I can see that glimmer of light and passion we held in common is fleeting from her eyes to be replaced by something else... I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not- only she will be able to figure that out...but what I do know is that we are not is the same place. I don;t know if it was because I lived with erh this short period of time or if this "newness" it caused by something/someone else...maybe it has been there all along and I was blind to it...but then, was everyone else? I know part of this feeling I have is jealousy...i'm not afraid to admit it. I feel as though Tony has taken the last family I have that hasn't stabbed me in the back..he's taken my best friend away and it's hard for me to deal with that...but that's not all of the feeling I have...there's something else...I dont know how to explain myself... WELL NEW SUBJECT.
I have moved in with Chris recently... several events (recent) have led me to this decision. I don't care to get into those, but I'm sure if you ask I coold clarify in a ranting sort of summary. The other reason being that I want to spend more time with Chris before I don't have anymore- he leave for Basic Training this summer. I don't know where I am going to go after he leaves, but I do know I'll be busy this summer so don't expect a whole lot of free time from me. I plan to get a full time job or two part times...CHA-CHING... anywho.
I guess that pretty much summarizes everything so far- well as much as your going to get out me anyway. lol So, I'll write again when I get the chance...
-simply saturnine is dissapating...choas keeps coming my way...is there no end???
-Saturnine
I have moved in with Chris recently... several events (recent) have led me to this decision. I don't care to get into those, but I'm sure if you ask I coold clarify in a ranting sort of summary. The other reason being that I want to spend more time with Chris before I don't have anymore- he leave for Basic Training this summer. I don't know where I am going to go after he leaves, but I do know I'll be busy this summer so don't expect a whole lot of free time from me. I plan to get a full time job or two part times...CHA-CHING... anywho.
I guess that pretty much summarizes everything so far- well as much as your going to get out me anyway. lol So, I'll write again when I get the chance...
-simply saturnine is dissapating...choas keeps coming my way...is there no end???
-Saturnine