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I have my computer again. I have AIM again. I feel a hazy happiness now. I can communicate without using the gross amount of cell minutes. I can communicate with my Penn State Buddies again. Can I just tell you how good that feels? *sigh* I've been home a month and I still can't believe I'm home. I've waited 2 semesters for this lightweight feeling of bliss. It's hard to believe a little over a month ago I was stressing over EVERYTHING. To the point it made me physically ill. And now? I'm sitting here looking at the same computer screen that hasn't operated since the days of dormroom 318. Staring at books until I could close my eyes and see the information, Furiously studying. Checking my scores to see if I am still a worthy student, tears welling in my eyes from the stress. All of it. Done. I'm home.
And here you are.
Right where you've always been.
Good to see you here again.
You took a chance, turned out okay,
but now you're here for another stay.
You've put yourself through one of life's tests,
Sit back and breathe, you've earned this rest.
This isn't to say that there aren't aspects of college I don't miss. I miss Blue Band, I miss the wonderful friends I made, I miss eating when and whatever I want. I miss those runs around campus. I miss Dr. Stacy's class. I want to TA for her class some day. I've decided that my area of concentration in Art Education will me Human Development and Family studies. I admire the psychology of it all.I truly believe I will enjoy it.
I've wondered how I can love a place that causes me SO MUCH strife. But then again. I put that blame on myself. It is entirely my fault. It is all my fault. And I absolutely loathe it.
I don't know where I stand. So before you draw conclusions, yes. I enjoy college most of the time. There are just times where I can't stand it that's all.
hmm...I'll elaborate about my Job, PSU schedule, and plans for the summer later. Or you could ask me and save me the work of typing it. (?)
And here you are.
Right where you've always been.
Good to see you here again.
You took a chance, turned out okay,
but now you're here for another stay.
You've put yourself through one of life's tests,
Sit back and breathe, you've earned this rest.
This isn't to say that there aren't aspects of college I don't miss. I miss Blue Band, I miss the wonderful friends I made, I miss eating when and whatever I want. I miss those runs around campus. I miss Dr. Stacy's class. I want to TA for her class some day. I've decided that my area of concentration in Art Education will me Human Development and Family studies. I admire the psychology of it all.I truly believe I will enjoy it.
I've wondered how I can love a place that causes me SO MUCH strife. But then again. I put that blame on myself. It is entirely my fault. It is all my fault. And I absolutely loathe it.
I don't know where I stand. So before you draw conclusions, yes. I enjoy college most of the time. There are just times where I can't stand it that's all.
hmm...I'll elaborate about my Job, PSU schedule, and plans for the summer later. Or you could ask me and save me the work of typing it. (?)