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I am thinking, really thinking, about cutting my hair short. Like above the shoulders short. Something I haven't done since junior high. I hated it. Then again, in junior high, my "style sense" and ability to actually make my hair look presentable was non-existent sooo... But like I said, I'm thinking of cutting my hair for the summer. I have one whole week to decide.
Right now my hair hangs to the middle of my back and I've always maintained some length that was AT LEAST below my shoulders. It's just *me*. However, last summer I thought about cutting my hair short but chickened out by the time I got to the salon. The fact that I'm thinking about it again makes me want to just DO IT, see how it is, then grow it out if I don't like it. If I don't, I fear I'll be thinking about a short 'do NEXT summer and I'll always wonder but always be too afraid to do it.
Because omg what if it looks baaaaaaaaaaad?!
I ask opinions and everyone pauses, looks at me, comments on how they like my long hair but how short hair would be "cute". Wah. What if it's not "cute"? What if it's boyish or? Ramble, ramble, RAMBLE.
So I have an idea of what I want, but there's no way to know what it will look like until it's done. And once it's done and I don't like it, I have to go through the awkward growing out phase where my hair is neither chic - ly short or femininely long, but just lanky bleh. There's also the embarrassing fact that from grade school up till the time I cut my hair in junior high, my long hair was my saftey blanket. My mask. My I-don't-think-I-look-pretty-so-let-me-just-hang-my-hair-in-front-of-my-face. I fear that remnants of that time still hold with me.
Hair is so complicated.
Right now my hair hangs to the middle of my back and I've always maintained some length that was AT LEAST below my shoulders. It's just *me*. However, last summer I thought about cutting my hair short but chickened out by the time I got to the salon. The fact that I'm thinking about it again makes me want to just DO IT, see how it is, then grow it out if I don't like it. If I don't, I fear I'll be thinking about a short 'do NEXT summer and I'll always wonder but always be too afraid to do it.
Because omg what if it looks baaaaaaaaaaad?!
I ask opinions and everyone pauses, looks at me, comments on how they like my long hair but how short hair would be "cute". Wah. What if it's not "cute"? What if it's boyish or? Ramble, ramble, RAMBLE.
So I have an idea of what I want, but there's no way to know what it will look like until it's done. And once it's done and I don't like it, I have to go through the awkward growing out phase where my hair is neither chic - ly short or femininely long, but just lanky bleh. There's also the embarrassing fact that from grade school up till the time I cut my hair in junior high, my long hair was my saftey blanket. My mask. My I-don't-think-I-look-pretty-so-let-me-just-hang-my-hair-in-front-of-my-face. I fear that remnants of that time still hold with me.
Hair is so complicated.