Oh dammit......
I love hanging out with my family when WE ALL ACTUALLY GET ALONG! which isn't that often but today was fun. we all held our patience and tempers...until the very end of course but it ain't family if you can't bite e.o.'s heads off. my favorite part of the evening was when it dawned on me, where do americans keep their pots and pans anyways???? (maybe one of you can answer that for me?) and my mom responds with a very serious "well, they have a very special microwave where they heat cook everything" lol. which i thought was hilarious. seriously. we store our pans in our oven, anyone else do that????
other than that, i can't believe my brother is about to start his last year in high school. and that some of you are about to begin your second year at college. and that soon i will follow. i guess its just that its been so easy to forget i'm on vacation, i just fell right into step with my life here, as if nothings happened. now its time to go back. but i'm scared. i don't want to go back. because everytime i do i feel as if i somehow become unconnected to the real world, to my family. and i don't want that. not now. not when things are so shitty on every side and end. its weird, but for the longest time i've had a bad feeling looming in my stomach (and no, it was not something i ate as my brother may claim) but just things haven't been feeling right. then now, with all the news, i dunno, it just feels like my entire family on both sides is in some sort of pit of despair....ok, not so dramatic but some looming cliff, teeter-tottering there, and i'm scared that--God forbid---if something were to crash, that i'd be so far aways. trapped in la la school land where the only thing people seem to worry about is where are we gonna get drunk next?
nighty night.
other than that, i can't believe my brother is about to start his last year in high school. and that some of you are about to begin your second year at college. and that soon i will follow. i guess its just that its been so easy to forget i'm on vacation, i just fell right into step with my life here, as if nothings happened. now its time to go back. but i'm scared. i don't want to go back. because everytime i do i feel as if i somehow become unconnected to the real world, to my family. and i don't want that. not now. not when things are so shitty on every side and end. its weird, but for the longest time i've had a bad feeling looming in my stomach (and no, it was not something i ate as my brother may claim) but just things haven't been feeling right. then now, with all the news, i dunno, it just feels like my entire family on both sides is in some sort of pit of despair....ok, not so dramatic but some looming cliff, teeter-tottering there, and i'm scared that--God forbid---if something were to crash, that i'd be so far aways. trapped in la la school land where the only thing people seem to worry about is where are we gonna get drunk next?
nighty night.