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well is been along time. im gonna guess eather no one types on live journal anymore or they all just changed their names. So yeah well i remember typing on here and how much it helped me in the past. It really helps get ur emotins out. Its really weird to think that you know just like 2 years ago i was typing my last entrie in lj for how llong. I donno. You know we've all changed alot. It makes me sad that when i wrote the entries you know i was really close to people. I really had friends. Not saying anyone all of u people arnt my friends...its just were really far apart. I don't know i just wish i could go back in time and just not of met jeremy. I still think everyone hates me for dating him, but its over now so, well you know, im...avaliable as a friend again. I understand i made a big mistake. I know, im a loser, im a mistake...but im sorry. I just dont know, i want friends, i want to be connected again, hang out and talk on the phone.....like sarah and i used to do ALL the time. but then something happened and it was over......all over.....its just done. My lifes over, u know. My school life. U cant find a big enough band aid to cover this cut. I rewend everything. I cant trust anyone. I'm afraid of people. I.....dont know..........i want people, but im scared...every time someone talks to me i get scared. I dont wanna be hurt and i dont wanna hurt them..Im getting used to being alone. Im so ....i dont even know. I jsut need to lose all connection with everyone and every thing...i still cant believe what she said...i my gosh that hurt me so much....i cant believe she said that. It makes me wanna just run in to my room and die.....why would she say that? does she hate me????
...................who am i kidding no one is gonna read this...........
...................who am i kidding no one is gonna read this...........